Gawd it felt so good to just rant the other day, like I don't have a person I can't rant to anymore but Mann that felt good
I'm trying my best to not be scared in drama anymore but eh some days I'm just not up for it but today I did good I mean I think a did
I start to fuck the teachers ship kids and try to pair them up
*awkward moment when the teachers done it twice*
I'm only mad cus this guy is LEIGT super tall like dude pls come down here
YOUR HEAD IS IN THE SKY HOLY AHIT
....
People are always saying "stay strong" and bullshit like that
Like no sweetheart you don't need to be strong, brake down be weak it's okay, you don't need to be strong all the time you don't need to.
One of the steps in recovery is relapse and that's fine, you binge, cut, or stave again it's okay relapse is fine you can go ahead
And thats what pisses me off
I've recently stated smoking and it's keeping my mind off things and I'm not leaving scars on my body but this one guy tells me to stop doing the things I do and I just feel like
You need to stop
This is my body
Theses are my problems
And these are my alternatives
Fuck off
Anyone else feel like that? Cus I'm getting sick of people commenting on my body
"You need to put weight on"
Sweetie I don't want to be a size ten or higher, that's quite fat for me just look at my old pics,fat ass bish
I'm quite happy getting smaller and being light is so nice yeah I'm a stick but I like it and I'm slowly liking myself again
Just please no body comment like LEIGT you need to stop talking about my ... ( tummy, butt, boobs ) I have self esteem problems and I don't need you people commenting, I'll work my body till it's the way I want it to be and I'll work it till I'm happy with It :3
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Non-FictionEverything I put in this book is what is happening inside my head. Sometimes I can't control what happens this is my life through my eyes How I get threw high school How I get threw life
