"I can't when you don't even care.."
"I never said I didn't care!"
"But you don't!"
Once they were enemies, now they're lovers. Let's see what happens four years later. Have they been able to keep themselves together? Have the stayed together? What...
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I breathed in the night and felt the stars fill up my soul. D. J.
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I never understood why I was the person the universe chose to torture. Sure, maybe I was being selfish as always, but I was really just convinced that the world had it out for me.
It dragged me through an abusive stepdad. The daily terrors ripping me into a thousand messy pieces of confused feelings. Extremely perplexed emotions of having no idea how to give or even except love correctly. It didn't stop there. No, it heaved me through collage with all it's trials and tribulations, that being August. As If it wasn't enough to have an abusive father figure, the world decided I needed a little bit or relationship trauma as well. And it, finally, all rounded of with Ryan.
Ryan had always been a problem and a blessing at the same time. He was anything I could ever want. And although we had a very rocky start with crying, hate, and extreme disgust... I learned that he cared. Ryan cared when no one else ever had.
When I looked at him I wasn't scared of what might be, or what happened in the past. When I looked at Ryan I felt at home. I never knew how much I had longed for that feeling. Crying for years just to get a taste of something I didn't even know existed. And yet here I was, home right in front of me with all his happy glory and I had never felt more alone. Extremely distant from the one thing I couldn't live without.
