BEHIND THE SCENES

chapter 146: unspoken actions, unspoken feelings

<OST: eight - IU PROD. & ft. SUGA>

Jieun dragged herself back into the studio and crashed onto the couch with a loud sigh.

Jungkook ripped off his headphones and turned around to look at her, looking concerned. "What happened?"

"What else?" Jieun waved the phone in her hands. "Kim Jennie and Min Yoongi are having issues."

"I freaking knew it," Jungkook sighed as he turned around in his swivel chair to look at Jieun. "Why? He wants to stay and she wants him to leave...?"

"Mm-" Jieun sighed as she combed her fingers through her hair exasperatedly. "But not really, either. I feel like... they both partially want him to go, and partially don't want him to go."

"That's confusing."

"But is it, really...?" Jieun questioned. "If we were put in that situation, what would your choice be?"

"What...?" Jungkook furrowed his eyebrows. "You mean like... if I were the person who had the opportunity to go overseas and fulfil my dream? Or if the person was you... whether I'd want you to go or not."

Jieun thought for a while. "Both."

"If I were Yoongi-hyung..." Jungkook frowned. "I'd stay. If I were Kim Jennie... I'd also want him to stay."

Jieun let out a small scoff.

"I guess I'm just selfish like that-" Jungkook shrugged as he got up from his seat and sat down on the couch next to Jieun. "If it's for you, I'm willing to give up anything."

"We're different in that aspect, I guess-" Jieun pursed her lips. "If I were Yoongi, I'd wanna stay. But if I were Jennie, I'd want him to go."

"What?" Jungkook exclaimed. "But that's exactly what the two of them are doing, Jieun-ah."

"I know-" Jieun sighed loudly. "That's why, it's tough for me to persuade either of them, too - because I completely understand why both of them would choose to do what they're doing. From a third-person perspective, it looks so dumb... but if I were in the same exact situation, there's no guarantee that I wouldn't do the same."

"But why though?" Jungkook pouted, getting more and more invested in this topic. "Why would you want me to go?"

"Because I know you'd wanna stay for my sake-" Jieun explained. "And I don't want to be the reason why you're unable to chase after your dreams."

"But I'll do it out of my own will though-" Jungkook argued. "Because of how much I love you."

"I still don't want it." Jieun shrugged. "I can wait for you, but your dreams can't."

"But my dreams are nothing compared to how much you mean to me," Jungkook said with a small frown. "I won't be able to chase after my dreams if I don't have you by my side... You mean you can?"

"Mm, I can."

"Lee Jieun..." Jungkook folded his arms and frowned. "You don't love me as much as I love you."

"That's not true, and you know that-" Jieun laughed as she patted Jungkook playfully on the cheek. "We just have different love languages and ways of dealing with relationships - just like Yoongi and Jennie... but that doesn't mean we don't love each other the same."

Jungkook pouted. "I just hope we never get into such a situation... because if we do, we'll probably get into a huge argument, just like them."

"We won't."

"Won't what?" Jungkook clarified. "Get into such a situation?"

"No, get into an argument because of it-" Jieun said with a smile. "We'll discuss it level-headedly and come up with a solution that both of us are happy with. We're way past quarrelling with each other over meaningless things, aren't we?"