I'm now in The Hague, my amily has an appartement here. I'll stay here until sunday night so I don't have to eat anything till Monday evening. I need to be under again by Monday.
This morning when I woke up, during class I felt so sick. It's because yesterday I was scared to even drink water because I want to lose as fast as possible. It's stupid but I was dehydrated. I get very nauseous when I'm dehydrated so I drank a bit and went to sleep for an hour or so. I felt better when I woke up.
I still feel uncomfortable but I will be feeling uncomfortable for the next three days as well.
I have to exercise today again. I think I'll go for a walk at 6 because most people have dinner then. And I'll do some rope jumping. Also I'll be watching the deer Hunter today because I have an assignment about it for Monday.
At least my pta essay writing got postponed.
It's now 15.20, I'm glad the day is going somewhat fast. I hate when days go by slow, I want it to be Monday already. So I wouldn't have to feel uncomfortable for 3.5 more days and work on my history assignment. To be honest, I kinda look forward to Monday after the appointment because I'll allow myself to eat again then,, it'll probably be a binge but oh well, after Monday I'll feel better at least.
Okay so I just decided that I'm going to plan what I'll eat Monday. Yes it's going to be a binge lol but I'll list the things I'll buy here:
- crisps
- m&m s
- ice cream
- roze koek
- noodles
- chocolate chip cookies
- chocolate
That's a lot, I probably won't have all of it but that's all the things I crave right now so:) :(
I'll show you Monday what I have and what I ate.
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Diary of an anorexic
Non-FictionI use this as my diary. I write down all my thoughts and I hope it'll help me.
