I don't know how much I weigh, I think 56...? My scale is soo old and dead. I'm going to buy a new one. A new one is literally 10 euros and that gets you a really fancy one with digital numbers. Mine is really really old wth. So I'm definitely doing that in secret and then put the old one in the public bathroom so my sis and mum think I'm over weighing myself. This is great.
When there's nothing on it, it's not even on 0. Some days it's on 0.5 some days on 1 kilo. It's really weird. I'm just scared that if I get a new one, I see my real weight and I turn out to be much heavier than my current scale tells me...
My family and I are on our way back home from our city walk. I already gave my mum her present. I burned some calories:) my parents bought some food during our walk as a treat. I don't know if that was the 'birthday pie' or not... but when my mum asked what I wanted, ana spoke for me and randomly said "I don't want anything" I was kind of surprised because it wasn't me speaking but I was happy about it. Later my parents also bought a drink for everyone but I skipped again. I couldn't think of anything I wanted without calories. (I don't like water).
I kinda hope that we will have tea with pie. I know that's stupid because pie has many calories but I've been looking forward to pie for a while now. I planned that I could have pie so... but I haven't seen any pie at home so I think I should forget about it.
The first thing I'll do when I get home is buying the scale. I'm soooo excited!! I could see my exact weight then!! Now I see some vague answer. I'll buy a pretty one.
I randomly ate 2 Brazil nuts so that makes 66 calories. Seriously, why do nuts contain sssooo many calories?! They're delicious.
Tonight we have my favourite dessert... I will enjoy it. Instead of pie I'll have dessert.
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Diary of an anorexic
Non-FictionI use this as my diary. I write down all my thoughts and I hope it'll help me.
