I feel like a kid, I'm so excited for my birthday, I dreamed about it.
A weird thing I have when I restrict which is partly awesome but partly hell; when I'm hungry after restricting for a while, I dream of binge eating. This is great because it feels super real and I sorta taste it as well. But every time I wake up from a dream where I eat, I'm sweating and wake up completely stressed. Like a nightmare. My nightmare is eating lol
I have to dance today, I'm too lazy uhg
I will dance though because I need to burn calories. And I also have to study and do homework. Tmr I will study and clean my room.
Tomorrow is Sunday which means breakfast...
I have to plan what I'm eating..
I'll just write down all the things I want:
- wrap w peanut butter
- porridge w pb+banana
- bread w pb+banana
- toast w cheese
- toast w avocado
I think I'm going to eat an apple now cuz I feel like i would binge.
YOU ARE READING
Diary of an anorexic
Non-FictionI use this as my diary. I write down all my thoughts and I hope it'll help me.
