ZARA

Chapter 44: Drive me insane

After that we went back to the lounge because it was comfortable and I wasn't yet tired. Until I eventually slept in the lounge.

—-30 minutes later—-
I broke the rules again, not like I hadn't done it before but I went to sleep in Owens room. He said he'll carry me back to my room when I was asleep, I was too tired to care I just wanted to be in a bed. He scooped me up from the luxurious sofa and walked with me up stairs still being in his arms I latched onto him gently watching for his shoulder. He was still hurt from what happened, but he didn't care as he limped up the stairs favouring his right leg.

We reached his room.
" Zara you have to climbed on top of the bunk." he whispered soft and gently into my hear. I nodded slightly not really listening to what he said. He put me down and I stumbled to the ground being unaware of what was happening. "Zara!" he whispered loud enough for me to hear catching me before I hit the ground. I stood up like a zombie as I used him as support.

"Okay we can just use the other bed." he whispered in exhaust walking me to the extra bed they had. "Get in it." He demanded clearly I heard him this time and crawled in. He let a big breath slip through his lips as he followed. I was a little awake and I scooted closer to him drawing circles on his chest to slow down his breathing. "did I wake you?" he whispered as he threw his hand to the back of his head. "Yea." I said in a soft sleepy tone. "I'm sorry." He uttered as I felt his head moved to kiss me on the forehead

"No worries." I murmured to him silently.
"What if I can't play anymore." He blurted to me as if he was waiting to tell me for a while. I had started to wake fully to his question.
"Owen you literally just came from being brutally beaten only a few hours ago." I grumbled at him in disbelief to what he just said. He sighed in response. I hated how he started to doubt himself. I really hoped what happened to him didn't change him. Because then I would be forced to beat Ashley's ass.

"Okay......don't think like that, you have to give it time." I advised him with hope as he turned away shifting his entire body to face opposite from me. He was hurt physically and mentally. I spooned him rubbing his lower back while I leaned my head on this upper back. I rubbed my his arms feeling him loosen up from all the tenseness he was feeling. I kissed his shoulder as I heard him take a deep breath. "Give yourself time to heal, were on a vacation remember, so live life like it's your last." I went on with a kiss I gave him finishing my statement.

He finally turned to face me giving me a quick peck on my lips and pulled me closer to him I folded my arms in his warmth, a warmth I have been craving from him, and it felt right.
He isn't  for anyone else but me. I wanted him only to myself. I felt his hand intertwined to together securing me in his grip I pecked his neck as he rested his chin on my forehead.

"You drive me insane, you know that?" He gushed causing me to smile.
"Yea?" I replied in a soft whisper. I felt him nod on the tip of my head.

"You drive me more crazy, you'd be surprised." I mention digging my head into hit chest.
"How crazy?" he asked and I instantly remember my depressing self when I knew he wasn't safe. "I would fight for you." I responded with a weak answer trying to hide the things I did to myself when he was gone.

"I wanted to see you slap the shit out of Ashley while I was in that basement for a while, deep down I still want you to." He admitted to me which made me smile letting a laugh slip through my lips. "Say the words and I'll do it." challenged him as I heard a laughed come from his mouth in response.

"What are we going to do tomorrow?" He asked trying to keep the conversation going I heard his voice get sleepy. "An activity.. There fun you would like it." I answered as my eyes started to shut.  "okay." he sighed in a sleepy way. " I cant wait." he added

I felt so complete when he was with me.
Knowing that he was safe kept my heart beating at a normal paste. I couldn't help thinking about wether we would consider this a couple. I was afraid to ask

Especially now because of what he faced, what if a relationship ruined us. I was safe with what ever we were but if he ever asked I would say yes with no hesitation. I did say I loved him and he said he loved me back, we kiss and have had sex, once. The rest of our relationship was built of trust, bonding ,tension and friendship. Looking back I smiled at the thought of how far we came.

We're just to teens inlove who has experienced terrible trauma.
I heard his breathing become even and easy I assumed he was asleep. I smiled remembering him saying he would take me back to my room when I fell asleep. Oh well if I get yelled at I'm sure he'll take the blame, he's my saviour anyways. I began to shut my eyes and finally slept.

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I was woken by Owen twisting and turning in his sleep. It was still dark outside. He sounded and looked uncomfortable and scared. I turned to him and I slowly placed my hand my on his cheek gently trying not to startle him. His eyes widen by my touch as his breathing grew heavy while both of his hands gripped onto me roughly causing my to stumble around a bit.

"Owen." I called on him calmly grabbing his face making him face me. " Its okay, your safe." I added pulling his head to rest on my chest as he gripped onto me to tight. His breathing started to slow down as I ran my fingers through his hair. I hated seeing him in so much pain like this he was shivering almost. I didn't bother asking him what he dreamed about because I already knew the answer. I laid back down with him rubbing his body to realise all his tension. which worked.

I fell asleep first this time not knowing when he did.