ZARA

Chapter 50: Sorry

Owens POV

It was the next morning, I fell asleep to a good ending of Zara and I also I didn't have a night mare tonight. Thank God,
After all my night mares are about her.
Her being taken away from me by who ever. Yesterday it was Hunter who took her. It was him for the most part I guess considering I was kidnapped by him.

I wasn't excited for anything today but seeing her. I hopped off the top bunk to notice Leo wasn't sleeping in his bed. I wonder where he was.

I got into the shower, I wanted to take a cold one this time. I dipped my head under the shower feeling the cold water rush down my back. I was so focused on the water being cold and nothing else.

After I finished in the bathroom I put my clothes on. I wore something simple just a tank top and grey sweats, pretty basic, but I knew it drove Zara crazy so I wore it. Something about my biceps bulging out of the tank top. I smiled thinking about her complement me for the first time.

" I like what you were wearing today."
"What was I wearing?"
"You were wearing a white tank top and grey sweats."
"Why... Thats so basic."
"I know but it doesn't mean it isn't hot."

It was a while ago and it was through text messages but I never forgot what she said till this day. My hair looked weird today so I put on a beanie and headed down stairs. I liked going outside to the river by the lounge to listen to the soothing sound the river makes. Its calming I guess. I looked over to see Ashley walking to me. "Hey." she mumbled smiling at me. I examined her outfit which looked a little different then what she normally wears.

"Here." She said handing me my hoodie.
"It's the one you asked for the other day." She said in a frown.
"Thanks." I half smiled retrieving it from her. It smelt like a laundry detergent. And it was soft just like how it was before.
I sat down putting it in my lap and she sat next to me.

"How are you feeling?" I asked her.
Yesterday that was where I was all morning and afternoon with her.
She had lost someone and something so dearly to her, I wanted to be there to help her go through it. So I woke up yesterday and we sat out here and just talked.

"I've been okay.." she sighed looking down at the the river. "You don't have to lie Ashley." I clarified to her and she smiled at me.
"I had another night mare today? Did you?"
"No... I didn't but what was yours about." I questioned her as she looked back down at the river.

"He was hurting my mom. Like how he used to when I was younger." She explained her dream as I listened noticing her eyes getting glossy.
"She left me and I fell into a dark pit where my dad was. And all the anger and frustration he put on her, he then put on me. I woke up when I was about to die." She concluded as a tear dropped down from her.

I didn't really know what to say.. yesterday I explained my dream to her and she comforted me but I've never seen Ashley like this so I kind of just watched her cry.

"I'm sorry I'm bothering you with my shit." She sniffed starting to stand up.
"No Ashley, it's okay I just- I don't- I'm sorry that your going through this." I said to her finally wording it out right. I watched her fake a smile almost. And she began to walk away.

"Ashley wait!" I called for her and she walked back to me wiping the tears from her eyes. "I don't want you to be alone." I comforted her.
"Thanks Owen.." she smiled and she sat down causing me to follow.

"What I put you through.. it was the biggest mistake of my life." She implied placing her hand on my arm.

She had been trying to apologize to me from when we got into the car up til now. I guess I kind of forgave her but it was only out of pity. I couldn't find myself telling her 'it's okay' EVER.

"I didn't think it through.. I was so hurt and I took it out on you causing you trauma and pain to the point of killing for m-"
"I didn't kill for you Ashley.. I killed for Zara." I growled cutting her off. I might have thought of Ashley...barely, but it was for Zara.
For her safety. And I would do again if I had too.

It became silent I realized I was being a little rude because she had looked away from me.
"Sorry.." I said to her in a neutral tone.
"It's fine I don't blame you." She said after running her fingers on the rocks sobbing.

Sometimes her crying triggered my flight or fight response, because she was always crying. I wanted to be there for her and tried to relate to her but sometimes I couldn't understand what she was saying from all her crying.

I patted her back awkwardly trying to calm her down. Sometimes I have to remember she didn't have an easy life and has been so strong for so long however, my emotions were so mixed for her.

"It's ok Ashley will get through this. Together." I said scooting closer to her to side hug her.
With out me getting another word out she latched onto my body squeezing me tight sobbing into my chest.
I didn't know whether to pull away or not. So I just stayed there with a blank expression my my face watching the river flow.

"Owen what the fuck." That voice was to familiar for me to miss.

"Zara!" I yelled yanking Ashley off me lightly
"Zara it's not what it looks like." Ashley uttered standing up immediately
Out of all the things she could've said. She said that.

"Your fucking snuggling my boyfriend....Someone I thought who was my boyfriend." She said giving me a dirty side eye.
"Zara no I swear it's not like that." I said in quick defence. And she stormed off.
"Shit Owen I'm so sorry." She whimpered and I didn't respond storming after Zara.

I watched her throw my bracelet onto the ground I must've left it with her last night and she came looking for me to give it to me.

"Zara let me explain!" I said loudly trying to get her attention and she didn't respond still walking off.
"ZARA." I yelled and she kept walking. I ran up to her and pushed her against the wall to get her attention. Holding her in place

"Let me go." She hissed looking away from me.   
"Can you let me explain first." I argued looking at her.
"What is there to explain Owen!" She snapped making me mad.

"I don't know she fucking BURNT her house down and burnt her fucking DAD and maybe needs someone to talk to before she KILLS HERSELF!" I shouted at her causing her to jump in a fright.
I realized how I affected her and backed away.

"You said that wayyy to loud." Ryan chirped peaking out of her room. And I rolled my eyes in response.

I turned my attention back to Zara who looked puzzled and scared at the same time.
"I'm sorry for yelling." I said softly in a calming tone.
And she nodded. "I don't fucking like her, and I wouldn't cheat on you after asking you to be my girlfriend." I scolded her in disbelief that she would even think that.

"Sorry. I didn't know." She admitted ashamed.  
"I just have so much anger towards her, I didn't know the full story." She sighed finally looking at me. "She has nothing on you Z. No one does, shit." He reassured her in annoyance.

She went in to hug me and I hug her back.
"I'm really sorry." She repeated and I nodded.