occasus [regulus black]

𝐢𝐱.

"What happened during the summer? And don't try to tell me everything is fine. I can see it in your face, maybe I can help."

Nesrin pulled Estelle aside from the others in the common room and eyed her worried. Her hair seemed to be thinner and her skin looked like someone blew dust all over her. Trying to think of something she could tell her best friend, Estelle started biting her lower lip fidgety. She didn't want to push her friend away again, but she couldn't think of anything to say. It was unarguable that she couldn't tell her muggleborn friend that her brother joined a hate group, directed towards her, under the assumption that it would protect her mother and her.

"I really wish you would let yourself accept help, when it gets offered to you."

It hurt her that Estelle wouldn't tell her what's wrong. She tried to hide it, while still being within her sight but as soon as she left the common room she dried some tears, that escaped her eyes unrecognized. It was like what she already feared before the summer started to manifest, they're bond started to rip.

She couldn't remember one time they didn't tell each other what was going on when one of them was upset. They were like sisters. Feeling helpless, when she couldn't do anything to help her, was one of the worst feelings to her.

As if by itself her legs brought her to the Gryffindor common room, she knocked the portrait twice and Lily opened the door.

"We didn't expect you to show up this early. Did the Slytherin party suck that much?"

She gave her a soft chuckle before climbing inside and joining the others at the fireplace. Sirius carefully pulled her on his lap and started stroking her hair. After a deep breath, she snuggled further into his lap, taking in his scent.

Leather, his stupid cigarettes and the smell of rain on concrete

"Lily was just planning the masquerade ball for this winter." James announced proudly, but Nesrin couldn't really follow their conversation. Staying here, gave her a guilty conscience. Estelle was obviously not doing well and instead of insisting to help her and talk about what happened, she left. Her mind started running desperately trying to figure out what could've happened, but she couldn't think of anything.

For a second she thought about following Nesrin out of the common room, but what would that change. When she ignored her friends question, she had hurt Nesrins feelings. Besides she still didn't know an answer. All she wanted to do was leave this stupid party and go to bed, but speaking from experience she knew she probably won't be able to find proper sleep before 2 a.m.

He pushed a girl against the wall roughly and smiled proudly, when a moan escaped her mouth. He didn't care that people were looking. She pulled his hair back, exposing his neck and started kissing his exposed skin. Slowly loosing interest, Regulus started looking around, when his eyes found Estelles. Standing next to the fire place alone she looked rather lost. Neither of them broke the eye contact and Regulus raised his eyebrows at her cheekily, before he pinned the girl against the wall aggressively and now was the one leaving hickeys on her neck.

It had been the first summer after Sirius had left and he had never felt more alone. Taking his mind of off this fact, caused him to fall back into his old patterns of random hookups.

When he hooked up with random girls, nothing else mattered.

The house had never felt so cold and lonely, then in the last weeks. His mother drilled him even harder and her expectations of him went higher than ever. It was unbearable.

Estelle watched his movement, his hands holding the girl against the wall, while his back nestled against her. Her jaw clenched and unfounded jealousy overcame her once again.