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part two :)

it took me almost two months to get over what happened enough to not cry whenever i think about it. i still haven't fully forgiven chaeyoung and i'm not sure when or if i will but i miss her. despite everything i still love her and i want to try and fix our relationship.

so, on saturday morning, i send her a text and ask her to meet me at our favourite coffee shop. she agrees in seconds so i make my way there and try to prepare myself to see her again.

she arrives about five minutes after me and i'm instantly hit with how skinny she's become since i last saw her. it's surprising considering how much chaeyoung loves eating but i guess i should have expected it because the same thing happened to me.

i give her a small smile as she sits beside me and she does it back, despite it not quite reaching her eyes.

"hi (y/n)," she says.

"hey," i reply. "thank you for coming."

"i'm glad we're meeting again. i've missed you."

"i know, i've missed you, too."

that seems to perk her up as he smile widens just a little. 

"okay, let me just get straight to it," i say. "i'm still really hurt over what happened and i probably always will be. i don't know if i can fully trust you again, it's something we're both going to have to work on. however, despite how hard it has been and might be in the future, i still love you and i don't want to throw what we have out over this."

chaeyoung opens her mouth to say something, looking overjoyed, but i'm not finished so i hold a hand out for her to stop.

"if we're going to do this, i want us to go to couple's counselling. we obviously have underlying issues that we need to address and we need to do it before this happens again. if you can agree to that then i can agree to making this work."

chaeyoung doesn't even hesitate before agreeing.

"of course," she says. "i want to do everything to keep you so yes, if going to counselling will help then we'll do it. i'm serious about you, (y/n), i love you and i'll do anything."

her words make me feel better about it so i nod, letting her know i accept.

"can we go back to our apartment? i want to continue this conversation in private," she says.

"alright," i reply, intrigued about what she wants to say that she can't in public.

we walk back to the apartment in silence, hands brushing occasionally and sending sparks down my spine, and once we're there, chaeyoung takes my hand and pulls me to sit on the couch beside her.

"i wanted to explain a bit more about what i think happened that night," she says.

my heart drops into my stomach and she immediately sees the change of expression on my face.

"i just want to give you the full story, or what i got from jisoo and lisa," she clarifies. "if you don't want to i don't have to but i think it might help."

i'm really not sure if i want to hear it at first. do i want to relive the moment that's been plaguing me for the past two months? i mean, i obviously don't but chaeyoung seems to really want to tell me so i figure i should probably let her to clear the air.

"okay," i agree, trying to mentally preparing myself.

"okay," she says. "i don't remember anything past drinking at the bar but i do remember that i'd had a bad day that day. i'd gotten in trouble with my boss at work and i was worried i was going to be fired. at the end of the day, the girls asked if i wanted to go out for drinks and i felt shitty so i said yes. because my day was so awful, i drank and drank until i was completely wasted and that's where everything disappears.

"jisoo told me that after about an hour there, an attractive man approached me at the bar and we began chatting. she said that at first i wasn't interested and even told him i was in a relationship but he kept pressing. eventually he kissed me and i really have no idea what happened but i guess i kissed him back and...it went from there. i don't remember anything until the next morning when i realized what i did."

i feel a sense of relief course through me when she finishes, glad she didn't tell me anything i didn't already know. i'd talked to our friends while we were split and they'd told me the exact same thing, even if their versions painted chaeyoung more in the wrong. but chaeyoung looks so glad to have it out so i decide i won't tell her i already know.

"okay, thank you for telling me," i say.

"thank you for letting me," she says. "does this change anything?"

i don't know if she means positively or negatively but the answer is the same either way. "no. i still want to work things out but it's not going to be simple. i don't blame you for getting drunk but you should have just come home. i could have tried to make you feel better. i know it's too late now and you can't go back in time and change your decisions but i would've thought that as your girlfriend i could have helped you."

she looks down at her lap with a sigh. "i know, i regret it so much. i'm sorry."

"i know you are." i lift her head with two fingers and lean in to press a gentle kiss on her forehead. "i don't want to make you feel worse than you already do. we can't change what happened but we can work on making sure it doesn't again, yeah?"

"yeah, i want to do that," she says.

"so do i."

she smiles and my heart stutters when she brings a hand up to cup my cheek and pull me in for a kiss. it's a little awkward at first but when the familiarity sets in we both get more comfortable and it feels natural again. i didn't realize how much i've missed kissing her until now.

i pull away first and give her a gentle smile before letting go of her hand and getting off the couch.

"i'm going to get my things from jennie's and bring them back," i say.

"okay, i'll help you."

moving my things back in doesn't take too long then chaeyoung and i spend the rest of the day chatting to try and get more comfortable around each other again. by the end of the day, as we're lying together in bed, i feel hopeful that we can make things work.

so i hope this isn't awful lol i know someone said to make chaeyoung pregnant but i wanted a happy ending so it just didn't feel right. sorry, i hope you liked it anyway :D