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love is blind･2

hehe another update! hope you like it ;)

warning: this chapter mentions attempted suic*de so please don't read if this is a trigger for you. your health is more important than anything.

less than 2 months into the school year, chaeyoung and i spend almost every minute of our time at school together. i introduce her to my upper year friends and she introduces me to her three best friends: jennie, lisa and jisoo. the 10 of us meet up daily for breakfast or lunch and whenever we do, chaeyoung always makes sure she sticks to my side. i suspect part of it is to play with manjoo when i let her but i'll take it.

i develop strong feelings fast. one day chaeyoung is just the sweet girl who makes my heart flutter a little and the next, i can't get her voice and smell out of my mind. i don't know what she looks like obviously but i don't have to. i like her for her personality, the way she's so sweet to me, always eager to help me. she's there for me when i stress out, when i get lost, forget my laptop at my house, forget my books at my house. there's nothing she won't do for me. and she does it all without being asked. i don't even have to tell her when something's wrong because she just knows. how could i not fall for her, honestly?

i confide in my friends wendy and seulgi about a month after discovering my feelings and the couple tell me to talk it out with chaeyoung. i refuse though, i'm definitely not ready to let her know just yet. not when this is the first real crush i've ever had.

"what's the worst that can happen?" wendy asks.

"she'll reject me then not want to be around me anymore and i won't have her in my life," i reply easily. "i value her friendship so much, i don't want to jeopardize anything."

"then take your time," seulgi says, placing a hand on my shoulder. "but tell her eventually. it'll eat you alive if you don't."

the next day at school, i try to ignore my feelings for chaeyoung but it becomes difficult when she keeps a hand hooked around my elbow all day. manjoo is sick at the moment, just a stomach bug, so i decided that it's best he stay home to recover. because of that, chaeyoung is meeting me at my house in the mornings and helping me get around everywhere. i appreciate it of course but it's hard to ignore the warmth that spreads from chaeyoung's hand to my arm. i just hope i'm not blushing too much so she doesn't catch on.

i'm so blanked out thinking about her that i don't realize we've reached our music department lounge until i hear the tell-tale click of chaeyoung entering the door code. she guides me to the couch and helps me to sit down before plopping down right beside me.

"have you done your theory assignment yet?" she asks.

"not yet, i was waiting until we got here to get you to read it out for me," i reply.

"okay, shall we start now?"

"in a minute." i pause for a moment, considering whether i should ask chaeyoung what i've wanted to for months. "could i ask you something?"

"of course," she replies.

"if you're okay with it, i kind of want to touch your face," i say. "i know it sounds weird but i want to know what your features feel like."

if chaeyoung is weirded out but my request she doesn't give any indication when she tells me yes. she takes my arm and guides it up to her face, letting my finger land on her forehead. i drag my finger across her forehead then down until it meets her perfectly shaped eyebrows. i run my finger along them gently just in case she's wearing makeup before moving down to her closed eyes, getting a feel for the shape of them. they're a pretty, round shape and i can feel a thin layer of eyeshadow and eyeliner on them. it doesn't surprise me that she isn't wearing much makeup, though, she feels like a natural beauty.