Perfection | Charli D'amelio

-I'm Okay-

"When there's madness, when there's poison in your head

When the sadness leaves you broken in your bed

I will hold you in the depths of your despair

And it's all in the name of love"

~Y/n's pov~

On the drive to the pharmacy, no one said anything to me. The car was absolutely quiet and I felt horrible. I didn't think that my boring disease was something worth sharing. It never crossed my mind. When I found out that I had anemia, I felt fine. I knew I would have to adjust my lifestyle a bit, but it's not like I have something worse like cancer. I hate that Charli is mad at me. I know she said that she is not mad at me, but if she wasn't at least a little bit mad, she would be talking to me. 

We pulled up into the house, and Charli held my hand as we walked inside. I looked at her, and she smiled at me. 

"Omg y/n are you okay, what happened?" Addison said as she ran up to me, hugging me. I look at Charli and she nodded her head.

"I fainted because I was being active for too long. I have anemia. I'm fine though." I was looking at the ground as I was talking. 

"Oh my gosh, we were so worried." Addison replied. 

"I just want to lay down." I said. Addison nodded and me and Charli walked upstairs to my room. 

When we got to my room, I sat down on my bed and looked at Charli. I couldn't read her. I am so confused on what she could be feeling right now. 

She grabbed some clothes out of my dresser and handed them to me. "Here, you should get changed." I just nodded my head and got changed. I sat back down on the bed and Charli sat across from me and looked into my eyes.

"Babe..." 

"I know I know. You have no idea how sorry I am. It just never crossed my head to tell you. I am truly sorry. I just didn't want you to worry about me." Charli grabbed me hand and held it tightly. 

"Y/n, if you would of told me, none of this would of happened, and I could protect you and help you. I am your girlfriend. No more secrets okay?"

"Are you mad? Are you going to leave me?" I asked, looking down at the blue bedsheets.

Charli put her hand under my chin and lifted my head up to face her. "What, no. I am not mad at you and I am not leaving you. Ever. I need you to know that y/n. Don't say that. Okay?" A tear streamed down my cheek and Charli wiped it away.

"Okay." Charli pulled me into a hug and ran her fingers through my hair. We stayed like this for a while then we ended up cuddling and watching Grey's Anatomy. I'm really glad she's not mad at me, I wouldn't be able to live without her. I am in love with her...wait did I just say that...

A/n: hey guys! sorry this chapter is so short, I didn't know what else to put in here. Is this book getting boring? Idk lol. Hope yall are enjoying it!

lots of love xx💖🖤