Racing Desires

29. Work life balance

Kiara's POV:

The ride back home last night was fairly silent, I still don't know how to really react about Nadine coming back to the company to work with Dean again. Perhaps if she would be working on a completely differen't floor or at least far away from our offices I would be able to deal with it better.

But she'll be working in the office right next to Dean's, like she used to. And to top it off, they will be working very close on this big business deal. Dean seemed remorseful last night and I know it's selfish to hold my own interests against his business, I just can't help but to feel this is going to be hell. Why does she have to reappear now?

"Honey could you please at least talk to me?", Dean asks silently during breakfast. It's not that I'm not talking to him, it's just less than usual and no banter.

"What do you want to talk about?", I can't help but roll my eyes. At least he couldn't see it as I don't look up at him once.

"Come on, don't give me the silent treatment."

"I'm answering, aren't I? Does that seem like a silent treatment?"

"Well that's all you do, you don't say anything else", I feel his eyes resting on me.

"It's not like you have said much either", which is true. Besides the fact, that he tells me to talk to him, he doesn't say anything. Last night I tried giving him the chance once more, by trying to question this whole situation, but he avoided answering directly. All he kept on repeating, it's important for this major business thing and he can't afford to lose this.

What I don't understand I've heard from a few people, she isn't exactly the type to really work herself. She mainly tells others what to do. So how can she be so important for some project? Did she sleep with someone wanting her in it? Is the business with her dad and he's putting pressure on Dean? I know she comes from a very wealthy business family herself. If I'd at least know a few details I'd feel a bit better.

After a while Dean sighs loud. "Look I don't want this to be this awkward between the two of us. It's just something we have to deal with for a while at least until I find a way out of this, ok? Please don't let this come between us", his voice sounds angry and desperate at the same time, a weird combination.

"Fine", I sigh. It's not like I have a chance anyway. "But I don't want her touching you", I say determined.

Dean comes around the table, lifts me up to sit on the table while he moves between my legs. His hands cup my face, making me look up at him. "I don't want her to touch me, the only hands I want to feel on me are your hands. So I promise I won't let her touch me, ok?"

My eyes lock with his beautiful eyes, eyes which take my breath away every single time. With his unsual two different coloured eyes. "I can deal with our random fights about shit, but I can't deal with this. I can't deal with you shutting down on me because of her." His lips land on mine and he starts kissing me gently.

I take a moment to respond the kiss, but eventually I do. Guess Brad cheating on me, has left me more insecure than I thought. He messed with me and now I'm having trust issues.

"We'll be late for work", I say while drawing back from the kiss after a while leaving Dean to sigh.

Today I let Dean drive as I still feel a little worked up.

"Work with me in my office this morning, we need to talk about this new campagne anyway and I don't have any meetings this morning", right now these words mean so much to me. Knowing she will be working with him a lot, makes it easier when I know he wants to work with me.

"Sure, why not?", I try and play it cool but can't hold back the smile on my face.

Dean and I work as always well together, Gina brings us coffee in between and I'm happy to not have come across Nadine. Well that's until it's lunch break time. We wouldn't have even noticed it's lunch break, if it wasn't for Nadine to barge into Dean's office. She doesn't even knock, she simply walks in as if she owns the place.