Racing Desires

56. Christmas party part 2

Kiara's POV:

No matter how hard I try to hold them back, I can't stop the tears from flowing. Of course it's also my hormones overwhelming me right now. There's no denying though, I would have probably shed a couple of tears even if I hadn't been pregnant.

So much is happening at once. I'm moving into my new home, an absolute dream home right from the first sight. Dean has organized a Christmas party for me, as he knows I've never experienced anything like it. He's organized the most beautiful decoration I've ever seen. This is like walking, ok let's say rolling, into one of my dream Christmas places a Christmas wonderland where even Santa would feel at home if he was real.

And our friends but also Gale and Brent are here, which means the most to me. People who have become family to me, more than my own parents have ever been. People whom I trust and love. The last part adding to my emotional state is the stress leaving me in this moment, stress caused through all the bad things which have happend in the last couple of months. Moving here feels like leaving part of it behind me.

I'm not blind to the fact, that a part of me will probably always have to deal with the trauma I've been through. Accepting my trauma is the first step of dealing with it. Will I ever be the same person again? No probably not. Is that a bad thing? No definitely not. I've grown due to everything I've dealt with. A part of me might have broken, other strong parts have been added on the other hand.

Giving up has never been an option for me, not at home, not in school, not at work and most certainly not in life. Things have always been the same, I'm a fighter and always will be no matter how much shit life throws at me.

And in this moment, when I take a look around I have everything I need and much more. Jeez I still can't believe I have my own home. And I'm not talking about a small rental apartment which I shared with Brad. No an unbelievable amazing dream house, which is going to be the home for my family. A home for my two babies, Dean and me.

My friends would literally do anything for me, as would I for them, which means far more than an expensive house. I'm expecting twins with an incredible man who has become the love of my life, even if I hate him at times. Alright I don't hate him, but he drives me insane.

Well be it, I love driving him insane too.

And then there is simply this, the perfect moment where everything I've ever wished for comes together. Honestly there would only be one thing which could make this moment even more perfect, sitting in the Charger instead of the wheelchair and feeling the engine roar while I can keep all the rest around it at the same time. Then again, a Charger in my new living room, surely wouldn't be the best idea.

Sean, Tyler and Dean surround me lovingly while my sobbing mixed with laughing fits won't stop. It takes me about half an hour, loads of cuddles, soothing words and some kisses from Dean to calm down.

"Hey Beautiful, if kisses help I can offer you some too. I'm a great kisser, something you shouldn't miss out on. Perhaps they even sooth you better than Dean's kisses", Tyler gives me a wink.

"Get your hands off my girl and step at least five feet away", Dean growls angry.

Guess one more thing Tyler and I have in common, we love to rile Dean up and it's so damn easy to do so. Although I know there's always a hint of truth with Tyler at the same time. No denying, he finds me hot and we have a great chemistry. Being Dean's best friend he would never act on it though. And me? Tyler is hot and charming, we get on great and if I had never met Dean, perhaps.

Fact is, I did meat Dean and the feelings I have for him are beyond anything I've ever experienced and beyond any imagination. Guess it's the once in a lifetime feeling, he's my love, he's become my best friend, he's become my life. The person who means the world to me and I'd do anything for. Nothing could ever match up to this.