bts x jungkook oneshots <3

⚠️write off - jikook

hi everyone :)

so it's been about a month since i last uploaded , and i know i say this all the time - but i truly am so so sorry. i know there is no excuse for my slacking, but my grandad has been in the hospital and i'm about to go back to school so i've just been really stressed and unmotivated  - i really hope i can go back to more regular updates soon, because i still loves writing for you guys so much. thank you always for being so understanding.

and , if you ever miss me - you can go follow me on here ! i post a lot on my message board so you can interact there with me :) love you all and hope you stay safe !!!

- EJ xx

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for almost everyone , 2020 was described as a "write off" year.

and although bts achieved so much and gave it their all - it was truly a struggle for everyone. they aren't rule breakers and they care about other people - so they too were cooped up in the house for a lot of it. unable to see army, unable to perform. unable to live their lives.

they all took it hard, specifically the cancellation of the tour. it's not easy to get work done when there's no deadlines , no managers up your ass. it's hard to dance when you're not practicing for anything, nothing new to learn. it's hard to sing when there's nothing to perfect - and no one there to listen,

jungkook is lonely.

while his hyungs all attempt to look on the bright side - taking time for themselves, picking up hobbies, working on solo projects etc, jungkook just can't seem to do the same.

he feels lost, every time he tries to start something, he can never complete it. his day consists of waking up at 11, after a basically sleepless night. eating whatever is laying around the house - moping around, probably watch tv or play video games, then work out until he can't feel his body anymore.

he hates this routine more than anything. there's no structure, nothing to look forward to, nobody to keep him occupied, nowhere to go..

namjoon keeps expressing how important it is that they communicate with each other during this time. he's heard hoseok rant for hours until he ends up crying, melting away inside the dorms. he knows how much they all miss army - it's all he seems to hear about right now. taehyung and jin visit weverse, namjoon and jimin are active on twitter, hoseok and yoongi continue to go live - jungkook is the only one that seems to be totally shut down. he hasn't posted anything in months, and everyone is worried.

he lays awake once more - far too restless to close his eyes. this is the worst part - staring at the ceiling, drowning in his own thoughts. sometimes it gets to the point where he just cries, muffling himself with a pillow so he doesn't disturb the six sleeping bodies throughout the house. he's trapped - and sometimes he wishes he could just disappear ...

jimin is worried. so worried.

jungkook isn't like this. he is usually a pretty lively person, he isn't exactly loud - but you can always hear him when you enter the dorms. he usually spends his life pestering seokjin or trying to teach himself a new skill - he's a busy boy, and not much can set the determined soul back.

so when he has to watch jungkook mope all day everyday, it hurts. he wishes he would talk about his feelings as they come, rather than bottling it up until he has a mental breakdown. he really doesn't want to have to see jungkook in so much pain again. he tries to get him up and play a game, paint something, build some lego - whatever it may be. but jungkook can't seem to put his mind to it.

"i'm bored, hyung."

"jungkook, we just started! it will be more interesting as time goes on , how a-"