bts x jungkook oneshots <3

⚠️black friday - hopekook

TW self harm eating disorder ya know, the usual.

——

"good morning."

"morning."

jungkook walks back into the bedroom to see hoseok laying in bed, finally awake. his red hair has faded into an auburn-y type colour and he looks more beautiful than ever. it's eight am on a tuesday but looking at him is like looking at fireworks on new year's eve. he smiles so brightly, so thankful to call that man his own.

"come here."

hoseok says sleepily, holding his arms out for the younger. jungkook climbs into bed and settles into his boyfriend's arms.

the pair sigh contently, breathing slowly and deeply, the aura is calm. everything is perfect.

"you smell good." jungkook says breathily. hobi chuckles, kissing him on the ear.

"you're gross. i haven't showered."

"mmh that what i mean. i like your natural smell."

hoseok laughs again. "you're weird."

the pair lay in the moment for a few minutes, chest to chest, hearts beating in unison. bliss.

the silence is broken when jungkook's stomach grumbles. jungkook freezes.

things have been really bad recently.

with jungkook.

well not with jungkook,

he's just been struggling a lot lately.

it always happens this time of year. as soon as there's a chill in the air, he stops eating. his panic attacks come back,
and life just feels unliveable.

now that hoseok is back an college, leaving jungkook all on his own for hours is unbearable. he's never struggled with his mental health personally but when he's away from his lover he's overcome with anxiety. he's so scared that something will happen to jungkook and he won't be there to help.

hoseok doesn't know what exactly is wrong. he knows the boy is eating less and sleeping more - but everytime he asks what's going on he gets shut down. he feels hopeless.

he blinks back tears.

"i have to get up soon." hoseok says sadly, pressing his lips into jungkook's head. the younger groans.

"i have time if you want to grab breakfast before my lecture?" he offers, jungkook sits up. he sighs - already knowing what the answer is going to be.

"no hyung, that's okay. i have lots to do today so i think i'll just stay here. thanks though."

he finishes his sentence, stands up and leaves the room.

hoseok stares at the closed door feeling defeated.

x

"okay love, i have to go now. i'll call you at break okay? i'll be home by six latest."

jungkook hugs him tightly, trying to keep it together. he's only leaving for five hours but it feels like a lifetime. he whispers a quick "i love you" before hoseok shuts the door.

alone again.

they share a tiny apartment but it always feels so big and empty when he's there by himself.

it feels like the walls are miles away. he closes his eyes and tries to take deep breaths.

keep it together. just for a few hours.