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birthday blues - jinkook

oh how i missed jinkook.

also ?????? I HIT 200K WJAT THE FUCOSHUDOWKDJDJDJKWKXNFKFKFNNEKXKDNDHFKLEKDJFKDKRJJ

i cannot thank you all enough, this means the absolute world to me you have no idea, i love you all more than anything

special thank you coming soon (combining my one year and 200k special into one hehe)

x

jungkook woke up bright and early on september first. his twenty third birthday, gosh - twenty three? when did he stop being nineteen?

he rolled over and turned off his alarm, sighing loudly. he sat up and rubbed his eyes, cracking his neck and standing up. he walked over to the mirror and stared at his now twenty three year old self. the dark circles pooled under his eyes and his skin was gleaming with sleepy sweat. he thought of his younger self, the child that debuted with his six hyungs - bright and hopeful. he used to adore his birthday's. he would wake up early (on his own) and throw himself on top his brother or parents. he would tear open his presents and eagerly blow out his candles, it was a day all about him - something to be enjoyed.

when he became a trainee his birthday was practically forgotten. there was no time for parties, they couldn't afford presents and weren't allowed cake. it was a normal working day, maybe a pat on the back or a card if he was lucky.

however, every year since debut his birthday gradually became a bigger deal. his one or two messages turned into hundreds, then thousands, and now millions.

the other members adored their birthdays. a day to celebrate them and their achievements. a day they each felt the most love from everyone - a happy day, right?

not for jungkook. he hated birthdays - he hasn't fully enjoyed one since his eighteenth.

why? he gets treated like royalty by all - infiltrated with gifts and positive messages, its most people's dream birthday right?

well, in theory yes. it's not the concept of birthdays he dislikes, or the gifts or messages - he can even deal with all the attention on him for a day.

the part he hates of course has to be the only part that's totally out of his control.

ageing.

it's one of his biggest fears.

you see when he was young, all he wanted to do was grow up. being the youngest in his family and group - he was always subconsciously treated like he didn't know anything. he still remembers the bitter humiliation when the clock struck ten pm and he had to be escorted out of the award ceremony, leaving his six hyungs to enjoy the fun. this happened on multiple occasions.

or when everyone else would get so drunk they couldn't stand up straight and jungkook, the seventeen year old ended up being the sensible one. that wasn't fun.

in the way of respect it never bothered him - his hyung's treated him well despite the age difference and using the honourifics just made them feel closer to him. but overall - he just wanted to grow up.

now, five years on he feels a little differently. he quickly realised that getting older isn't all it's made out to be. he is faced daily with more responsibilities, jobs, judgment and general situations that a child or teenager would not be in. it's painfully obvious to the maknae that he's not a baby anymore, and never will be.

it's like his brain has gone in reverse. he went from a bright and promising teen who wanted nothing more that to be old and wise, to a man in his early twenties who longed to be the fifteen year old kid with huge eyes and full round cheeks. the older he got, the younger he wished he was.