Dark Waters

CHAPTER TWELVE

Cam's Pov

I was literally going mad with worry as I was pacing the whole apartment. I knew I should have stayed back but I felt the need to give her some space and also complete the art work I was travelling with next Saturday. I came back by three today and when I didn't see her I wasn't bothered at first, I mean she has the liberty to go wherever she wants but when I slept off and woke up by some minutes after six and didn't see her, I panicked.
I didn't sleep a wink last night on the couch but I was too stubborn to go to bed until the early hours of today so you can imagine how tired I'd be. I wondered what she was hiding from me, how bad could it be or does she think that I'd walk away if I knew what she was hiding? It cannot be that bad right and if I knew myself too well, I was not walking away from her ever again. I did that once and I think that's when most of those secrets happened. I had called her nonstop but she didn't pick and I'm sure I sent over twenty messages. It was some minutes after ten when my phone beeped and I rushed to pick it but it wasn't her. Anger immediately filled me when I saw the caller ID
"What do you want?", I answered coldly.
"Cameron Marie Davis that is no way to talk to your mother", my mother dearest screeched.
"I don't give a fuck and you couldn't be more of a mother even if you tried", I sneered and she sighed.
"You are still mad over something that happened over ten years ago", she questioned stupidly. Don't get me wrong, my mother deserves everything she gets from me. She was never a mother or anything to me and I couldn't get away from her faster.
"What do you want?", I was getting impatient. It has been a very long time that I talked to her and when she calls me she tries to make me understand that I have no right to be mad at her for everything she and Bill did to me. Epic.
"You didn't tell us that you were the artist for the fundraising in Canada", she squealed and I rolled my eyes.
"So?", I asked coldly.
"Well you know how your father and I love giving so we'll be there and since you are coming too you may get to see your sister. She is acing all her exams and very soon she'll be going to Oxford to become a doctor", she chattered excitedly. Does this woman not know that I have my girlfriend to worry about right now?
You got the sister part right, I still feel weird whenever I hear about her. Lily was just two months when I saw her last, she should be sixteen years old now but I don't really care much. I know I sound like a bad sister but I was sure that she had to be like them for Christine and Bill (my parents) to like her so much.
"So?", I asked again.
"It would have been nice to have a big sister to follow her steps you know", she was starting to annoy me and I just hung up on her. I had enough to worry about and I didn't need her shit on my matter too.
I looked at the clock again and it was almost 10:30, Jesus does she want to kill me? I ignore her for some hours and she gets lost. My ears perked up when I heard the faint sound of a car engine pull up in the driveway and I ran to the window, lo and behold my girlfriend that kept me worried all day long was coming down from a car and it didn't take long before the driver sped off. I don't care who the fuck dropped her off but I didn't like it. I sat on the couch, relieved that she was safe, I didn't know about sound but yeah, she was here. At the same time I was brewing with my jealousy, yes I Cameron skip the middle name Davis is fucking jealous. The door bell rang and I sprinted towards it and opened it to reveal a very tired Sarah with her eyes puffy as if she has been crying.
"Hey babe", she said timidly and searched my face, probably for any sign of anger but I kept a blank face.
"Hey", I pulled her close and kissed her, marveling in the taste of her lips. Don't worry, I was still mad at her but I missed her too. She melted against me and kissed me as if she wanted more, she was asking for something to hold onto and I knew I could give that to her. I pulled back and hugged her,
"How are you?", I mumbled into her hair and caught the smell of her shampoo.
"I'm fine now", she mumbled into my chest and held onto me. We stayed in that hug for a long while, just swaying to the sound of the silence, enjoying each others protection and warmth. I could tell that she was struggling and I wanted to help but I needed her to tell me how. I pulled back and lead her to the couch where she made herself comfortable on my body, not that I minded.
"There are reasons I have panic attacks and nightmares and it's not Xavier, he was just a trigger. A lot of things happened while you were away and I am not ready to relive those memories again, not now at least. I need you to be patient with me", she mumbled quietly and held eye contact. The hurt was swimming there, I saw the look of longing, as if she was missing someone but it passed immediately. She was letting her walls down for me to take a peek at her and I saw nothing but a very strong woman who has been through a lot and I was ready to be her shield this time.
"I understand and I will never push you. I will wait for you but I need to know that you will surely tell me everything. I just have two questions. Firstly, who dropped you off?", I crossed my arms and raised my brows at her. She stared at me before letting a loud laugh out. What the hell was funny, I rolled my eyes and huffed.
"Is someone jealous?", She poked my chest and grinned up at me and I gently slapped her hand off and tried to stand up but she clung to me like a wall gecko.
"Get off me if you are not going to answer my questions", I mumbled but held onto her thigh to keep her glued to me. She raised her eyebrows at the action and licked my neck, someone was being bold today and I liked it.
"An acquaintance", she said in a sultry voice and bit down in my neck making me fight the groan that tried to slip through my mouth.
"Better, I hope this acquaintance knows you are mine", I squeezed her bum and she ground against me, moaning. She lifted her head and kissed me, the lust was evident in the kiss with the way she ground against me and grabbed my hair. I thought of the second question, as much as I don't want to ruin the moment I needed to know the answer to that. I broke the kiss and looked at her, she seemed to have understood my question because she sighed and the tears came to her eyes. She hugged me tight and let the violent sobs rack through her body. I felt like crying then, nobody deserves to be raped especially not Sarah. I held her all night, watching her cry for hours on end. Even in the shower which she still insisted on taking, she cried all through and had a nightmare that night. I just held her, not knowing what else to do, helpless and hopeless.

Things seem to be getting emotional in the previous chapter and this one. I actually felt bad writing this one. 🥺