Traumatized

Chapter 16

IZUKU POV

It was Thursday afternoon, class had just ended and I was making my way back to my apartment. I threw on my headphones and let the music take me away as I kept my eyes glued to the sidewalk. Today was the day that Auntie Mitsuki and I were supposed to meet with Mr. Aizawa. The world around me seemed to slow down as I made my way through the streets.

I laughed to myself a little as I thought about my life. "Who would have ever guessed that this Dekus life would turn out like this?" A small smile formed on my face but quickly faded as my thoughts came to the surface.

"Do you really think you're good enough?"

My walk came to a stop. I took out a headphone and looked around confused. I could feel a pain in my chest form as I continued my walk. "That's weird." Slowly I made my way back while trying to shake that voice out of my head.

"You'll never make it, you're just wasting your time."

I felt my pace quicken as I made my way through the street. Dipping between people trying to do anything possible to make it back faster.

"You've never been anything besides a failure."

I could feel the pace of my breathing accelerate with each voice that spoke up.

"You're nothing but a worthless nobody."

By now I was in a full out sprint through the crowd trying to make my way back to the safety of my apartment.

"Give it up you'll never amount to anything."

I began to slow my pace as I looked around trying to find a place to hide. "Shut up dammit . Why now of all times?" I could feel the pace of my breath pick up even faster as I turned the corner. Around the corner I found an alley that I was able to hide in. Quickly ducking into the alley I sat down and opened up my bag pulling out my flask. After taking a few swigs I threw my head back and stared into the sky. "Damn it's been awhile since I last heard them like that." I wrapped my arms around my legs and tightened my grip as I felt myself start to shake. "But why... Why now of all days?"

I buried my face into my knees as I sat there trying to calm myself down. Taking some deep breaths I slowly raised my head to stare at the wall in front of me. I clenched my fist as I took one more deep breath. "Just one step at a time." As I was starting to stand up I felt my phone go off. I stopped and pulled it out to see a message.

Auntie Mitsuki: "Hey Izuku just wanted to remind you that we're having that meeting at your apartment today. I'll be over soon ok."

I slowly slid back down to the ground and brought my knees back to my chest. I sat there for a minute just thinking about what would come from tonight.

"They're going to hate each other and you won't even have a chance to try."

I could feel my breathing start to pick up again. "Shut up."

"They both think you're nothing but a burden."

I could feel a knot start to form in my stomach as I buried my face in my knees. "Tha... that's not true."

"They only pretend to care out of pity."

"Th.. they do care about me." I clenched my hands on my knees. As I continued to shake.

"No one has ever cared about you."

"Stop it.. it's not true." I could feel a few tears starting to run down my face.

"You're nothing but a cursed child that's meant to be alone."

I stood up and walked to the wall in front of me. I placed my head against it and brought my arm back before punching it as hard as I could. "Just shut up already." I punched the wall again.