Traumatized

Chapter 17

JIROUS POV

"Oh God what was he thinking with that text... Oh God what was I thinking when he called?" I buried my face into my knees as I twirled my jacks in my hands. "Why the hell did I have to say it's a date? I mean it's not like he took me seriously or anything, but then what did he mean when he said it's a date?"

"Kyoka..."

"Does he think of this as a date? Wait is this a date? Oh God do I need to wear something cute? No that's stupid we're meeting after school so we'd both be in our uniforms."

"Kyoka..."

"Why am I thinking like this? I don't even know if he likes me, and it's not as if I like him.... at least I don't think I do. I mean sure he's kind and his hair looks soft enough to use as a pillow. He genuinely cares for people and makes great music. Not to mention he looks good without a shirt and that scar is kind of a turn on. Oh God what am I even thinking now? Damn that idiot."

"Kyoka..."

"What am I saying he's not an idiot he's socially awkward and he didn't mean anything by it.... unless he's secretly some kind of exhibitionist. No that's impossible there is no way he could be like that he's too innocent." I bit down on the inside of my lip. "Well... maybe he isn't... I don't really know much of his personal life. All I really know is skin deep." I closed my eyes and I could see him clear as day. All the scars on his arms and the one on his chest. I shook my head and closed my eyes tighter. I could now see his green eyes. "Those damn eyes sometimes shined like emeralds and other times they were covered in a fog drained of all life. They just add to the mystery that is Midoriya."

"Hey Kyoka!"

I was suddenly jolted back into reality by my moms jacks tapping my head. "I'm awake!" I sat up quickly and looked around the living room to see her standing in front of me. "Is everything alright?"

She kneeled down so we were level and unwrapped my jack from my fingers. "I should be asking you that. I've been calling you for the past minute but you were so caught up in your own mind weren't you."

"S.. sorry I just was doing some thinking." I rubbed the back of my head.

"Is that so, what could possibly be on your mind this early?" She gives me a small smirk. "Or should I say who's on your mind?"

"What are you getting at?" I give her a cold stare.

"Kyoka I know you better than you know yourself." She closed her eyes while giving me a smile.

"If that's the case what am I thinking right now grand wizard?" I roll my eyes slightly.

She pouts at me before standing up. "You're thinking about that Midoriya boy again."

".... lucky guess." I groan under my breath.

"Gosh you really like this boy if you're thinking about him this early." She sat next to me and leaned in a little. "So what's the issue this time."

"We're... meeting up... after school... to look at guitars.. then maybe going to the park." I bury my face into my knees again.

"Oh is this a date?" She practically squeals in excitement.

"NO... maybe... I don't know?" I tossed my head back and stared at the ceiling. "We talked last night making sure we both were still good to meet up and as I was about to hang up I said, 'it's a date then.' a little later we texted and he said the same thing. Now I don't know what to think."

Mom just stared at me blankly before taking a deep breath. "Why are you so worried? It seems pretty clear to me that it's a date."

"But what if I don't want it to be a date?" I look at her upset.