See You Around~ Grester (completed)

Chapter Twenty-One

Grace's POV

If there was a gun I would have pulled the trigger, if there was a bridge I would have jumped, if the man who meant everything to me wasn't at home I would have gone. 

I thought back to every time I had sinned, every foul word which had fallen from my mouth, every time I had been the reason behind tears but nothing I had done in the past seemed to equal the amount of pain I was feeling now. It seemed so unfair, this wasn't meant to happen to me. I wanted to scream and curse but I shrivelled up into a ball and cried, the back seat of my car supporting me as I refused to go anywhere. Knowing that if I moved I would be accepting this, I couldn't even say the word and I couldn't drive away from the hospital because driving away would be moving on and I wasn't moving on. 

My phone rang, Chester's face flashing on the screen. I clicked accept but didn't say a word. I listened to his voice, the concern as he called out my name. His voice was my favourite voice and for a while I sat and listened to him, forgetting the world and focussing on the one person who could turn rain into a rainbow. 

Eventually he hung up, accepting the fact I wasn't there and I realised how much I already missed his voice, how much I missed everything about him. My thoughts of ending everything a few minutes ago seemed so petty and childish and I realised how much I needed to be here. How I needed to be here for my own sake more than anyone else's. I drove back home, knowing that I must explain everything. There was so many things I had to do, so many places I wanted to visit and one person in particular I had to stay with. His face appeared in my head, the imagine of his laughter and smile. I tried to imagine a life without them, without him, but when I thought about loneliness my body shook with fear and I lost direction. I banished the thought of Chester leaving, knowing from now on I had to live every day in the moment.

The tears flooded down my face as I approached the door and my hands shook, fumbling for the keys. He was at the door as soon as I took a step inside, my eyes locked with his, they were full of concern and desperation. 

"Grace what's wrong? I was so worried- is everything okay?"

My throat tighten as the words traveled through my mouth. I couldn't say them. I couldn't admit it. I took a step back, afraid of his reaction. It was all in my head, he wouldn't go anywhere, he'd be so supportive. I inhaled sharply before forcing the words out my mouth and into the open air. 

"Chester. Chester I have cancer."