See You Around~ Grester (completed)

Chapter Fifty-Three

Grace's POV

I didn't expect this to ever happen, or if I did not in this way. I don't know why I had been so oblivious to the factor that I could've been pregnant; I suppose sometimes somethings are too good to be true.

This was all I had ever wanted ever since the opportunity was nearly ripped from my grasp and now that I had it I didn't know what to do with it. I had always thought this would never happen and it was an outstanding fear of mine.

So I buried my fear with denial, saying I didn't want children because I truly believed that I wasn't worth this miracle.

Now however, there is a human living inside of me, depending on me for its survival and I felt useless, helpless just letting it cook inside of me for how was I to know they were okay, how was I know I was providing my unborn child everything it needed.

In situations like these, ones where I can't decide whether I should be grinning or crying I normally let the excitement overtake the fear; if I looked happy on the outside then I'd feel better on the inside, that was my duplicitous theory but today it didn't work.

I was allowing the fear to devour me, to pulse through every vein and envelope me in imprisonment which I had so carelessly physiologically built. I couldn't escape the feeling that something was wrong, that every breath I took was a breath my child lost. It was stupid, I knew they would be okay but I couldn't pretend that I was okay.

Chester's POV

"Come on, let's get you two home." I said, taking Grace's hand and helping her off the bed.

"You two?" Grace smirked, collecting her bags.

"You and the human you're growing inside." I smiled, looking down at her stomach in amazement.

"It's weird that isn't it? It freaks me out." Grace squeezed my hand as we left the hospital doors.

"You're okay with this all Grace aren't you? You can tell me if you're scared, it's okay." I tried to be strong but it scared me too, suddenly my responsibility was doubled and I'd be lying if I said I was frightened by that.

I knew the science, of course I did and it always amazed me. Seeing baby bumps and scans excited me, for when it would finally be my turn.

However, when it's you it's all completely different. You see the negatives in what could happen and I hated this new state of mind. I wished I could see beyond the pessimistic darkness, because it was optimism which had helped me through life and I wasn't going to let go of this now.

Because this was amazing, an incredible miracle that I had been blessed with and it was hard to comprehend that this was all happening.

It was hard because a few hours ago I had believed in nothing, I hadn't believed in the good, I hadn't believed in the future and for the first time I hadn't believed in hope and now I believe in everything.

Just like that, a few words, a blob on a screen, everything has changed physically and mentally. And as much as it scared me it always excited me.

Because with fear lies hope and if you live in fear of the future because of what happened in your past, you'll end up losing what you have in the present. And that's the last thing I want to do, because the life I am living now is phenomenal.