A girl having challenges with her sexuality coming from a rough past when she encounters a special woman...but she is already seeing a guy and with this confusion she will have to eventually choose between love and like..will she love her and like h...
A/N The terms in this are fictional for the most part so just follow along with me.👩💻❤ enjoy....
Renesme's POV
"Lilith get off, what happened last night?.." I lift her from off of me, and stand on my feet. "I need to know what happened last night" Would she take advantage of me like that, why would she though.
"Ok Ren calm down...let me explain "
I look to her not saying anything so that she would continue.
I am trying to control my breathing not wanting to collapse again. My anxiety is not helping, I usually have these under control, I have medication that prevents this from happening I just missed the time last night. I need my meds.
"So last night what happened was..you met the leader...."
She started and as she spoke what happened to her that lead me here..
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"Mason where is Ren?...I told you to be nice to her" I asked my brother as he looks at me with a smug grin on his face and shrugs his shoulders. Now I'm officially worried. Where could she be I exit the hall into the hallways, I'll check her room then the gym.
She isn't in her room which means she is in the gym I don't think she would leave the estate she knows better than that. As I'm walking towards the gym , my feet suddenly felt block by something on the floor, the cleaners know that they clean and if they don't then there would be no use of them now would there.
Looking down I'm met with Renesme's eyes closed as her body layed slump at my feet, is she drunk. She is never like this.
"Ren....Ren...wake up sweetie " no no this can't be happening "Ren wake up!" I kneel beside her body as I prod her to sit upright but her body was still limp..what happened to her.
"Ren wake the fuck up!!..you can't do this to me" I hug her limp body as I sob in her red hair. Wake up baby
"Lilly"
Her grey stormy eyes flutter open as she looks up as my probably flushed face full of tears right now.
"Don't leave me like that again" I rest my head on hers as tears just continue to flow..I want toughen up but just the thaught of loosing her scares me.
"It's ok Lilith I just had too much to drink and didn't eat anything today"
I look to as I help her stand to her feet, a sorrowful silence in the air as we are now in similar positions once more. I look to my feet saddened by the fact that she didn't trust me enough to tell the truth...Ren dosen't drink..why would she lie to me.
I don't know if I should feel annoyed that she doesn't feel like she can trust me or simply just sad that she has every right not to...it's not like we are together..we only kissed.
I turn to leave her unable to bear the pain of seeing her hurting in her eyes but can't be of any help because she isn't mine.
She held my hand and held me back.
I turn to look into her eyes and tears are streaming..I can't stop my hands as my hands find their way to her cheeks to wipe away her tears.
Ren held my hand in place on her face as she closed the gap between our faces as her lips crashed unto mine.
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The mixture of the salt from out tears and cherry from her mouth, I know she always eats that special mint she says it's her way of drinking without getting drunk. She welcomed my tongue as we both fought for dominance..me winning as I lifted her by the ass as she latched unto my hips.
I brought her to my room placing her on my bed.
"I'm just gonna take a shower I'll be back" I tell her as I go into my bathroom closing the door behind me...I have been waiting for this moment from the moment she said she was interested in the mafia, someone who would accept me and my responsibilities. I do a quick wash of my hands..
"Nash noooo don't let her hit you you'll die..nooo..please don't..please..mom noo!!"
I ran out of the bathroom to see Renesme in a pool of sweat on the floor pulling at her hair screaming out
"Nash nooo!!"
Tears are pouring even though she doesn't seem to be awake "Renesme wake up..it's ok ..just open your eyes..it's ok..it's ok just open your eyes ..sweetie just open your eyes" I cradled her rocking her back and fourth.
"Wake up Ren just wake up"
She latches her hand around my neck..."thank you"
I lifted her up and went under the sheets as nuzzled into the crook of my neck, just clinging unto me.
After a while she eventually fell asleep and I slipped out from her embrace to change into underwear seeing that she is in this state. I don't think I should sleep naked like I normally do.
I joined her in bed as her body found mine again and blissful sleep found me..for once sleep knocked on my door tonight.
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Renesme's POV
She told me what happened and I remember pieces but I still can't be this vulnerable to her.
I started having Tonic-clonic seizures when I was diagnosed a while back but I had it under control with my medication...if Lilith knew I had epilepsy she would think I wasn't able to perform in the mafia I needed this... I needed to feel the adrenaline more intensely.
The only persons who knows about it are Victoria and Nashton I haven't even told Jake. After any episode with one of my bestfriends would comfort me, but Vic moved away around the same time as Nash came.
"Ren are you ok now, do you remember now?" She asked waking her hands infront of my face
"Yeah I remember now" I don't really want to talk about last night...I was confused I'm not sure if what I said last night was my true feelings for Lilith or because of my illness.
She reaches her hand to caress my cheek. I shift away awkwardly. She notices and let her hand fall back to her sides.
"I just thought.....las.."
"Can I use your bathroom" I need Nash I need his console he is the one I need right now I enter her bathroom and shoot a text to Nash telling him to come to pick me up...I can leave now that the official initiation is completed. I look up at the mirror and tears brim my eyes threatening to spill...at the sight of my reflection in the mirror.
I hear my phone buzz in my hand ...I open his message.
NASH-" I'm here"
I am relieved that he is here he is always there even if he's not Vic is they take care of me that way.
I rush out of Lilith's room and ran as fast as I could out of the giant estate and through their big gates and into my best friend's arms, into the arms that has never faltered in keeping me safe. I missed him
"Can I come over to your house?"
He nods as he looks into my eyes to search for answers to his unasked questions.
He kissed me on my temple and he opened the passenger door for me to step in. Soon after he joined me and not too long after we were speeding down the deserted roads. I'm glad he knows I'm not ready to talk yet.
A/N I have no idea about this chapter but we will see.👩💻❤
Simple Nash feature I don't want him to fade away😅👩💻vote and comment ✨
