Unforgettable Memories |Erwin x Reader|

You're Crazy

3rd person pov:

You lifted yourself to your feet, frustration and anger clouding your view. You than started to yet again race forward, to only be stopped by stopped by a firm grip to your wrist. You felt the bracelet that was once on your wrist fall off the side of the wall. Their it swayed side to side, falling slowly. The one thing that kept you three connected, disappeared.

"N/n, stop. You won't be able to do anything with just blades." Armin yelled at you over the loud roars of the titans.

"Let me go! I need to stop him." You shouted, trying to pull way. Hange than grabbed onto your other arm and restrained you. You felt as if everything had started to slow down again. The smoke swirling around, the screams of the titans, the wounded moaning, and the sounds of falling rock. You wished this was all a dream or that it never happened.

The brawl between the two titans caused you to fight against Armin and Hange even harder. You just wanted to stop it all, and end this nonsense. By the time you were finally set free, they were headed towards the forest.

"Reiner, come back!" You cried out, your hands balling into fists.

-small time skip-

"Come on Y/n. I have your horse, lets go." Erwin's voice said as he placed a hand on your shoulder.

You turned around, eyes filled with sadness. Nodding, you hopped onto the gate, being dropped down onto the other side of the wall. You hopped onto your horse and just raced forward, ignoring the commanders orders. Your emotions had yet again taken over you, causing you to put yourself in danger.

Everyone started to follow your lead and into the forest, trying to retrieve Eren. The mission was unsuccessful the first time round, causing you to become even more angry. This was when Erwin's arm would be taken off by a titan.

"Shinzo Wo Sasageyo!" He shouted as his arm was in the titans large mouth.

"Erwin!" You screamed, turning around. You leaped off your horse and dug your blades into the titans neck. Erwin fell from its mouth, instantly trying to grab his horse and mount it again.

You continuously stabbed the titan, taking all your anger out. You slashed its nape, throat, eyes, and back. As you started to calm down, you hopped down to Erwin's side.

"Commander, I'm sorry. I should of waited for you, and protected you." You said, quickly wrapping his arm with a bandage.

"It's not your fault. We have to advance, so hurry up." He demanded, lifting himself to his bottom.

"Yes sir, right away." You replied, finishing up the wrap and helping him onto his horse.

Everyone continued to race into the forest, hoping to free Eren. Erwin than lead the group, creating an opening to free Eren. He swiped at the restraints, letting him go. This new mission was successful, and everyone cheered as they started to race back to the wall.

As you returned, the commander had slipped into a coma. He had lost a lot of blood during the retrieval of Eren. You sat at the foot of his bed for a few days, not getting any sleep, worrying like crazy. The fact that Bertolt and Reiner were titans also kept you wide awake.

After a few days of sleeping, Erwin finally awoke. Hange had explained everything that happened, keeping him up to date. She left the room, waving to the two of you.

"How long have you been sitting here?" He asked, sitting up in his bed.

"Doesn't matter. Good job scaring me half to death." You spat, standing up. Your vision became blurry, so you supported yourself on the back of the chair. Leaning against it, you tried to play it off.

"Y/n, when did you last sleep?" Erwin asked.

"Don't know." You replied, sticking your nose in the air.

"Please rest, you have busy days ahead of you." He said, rising to his feet. His one arm tried to lead you towards the bed, but you pushed him off.

"No. How can I sleep when two of my people are now titans, and are running aimlessly into the endless, dangerous woods." You gibed.

"I'm going to let you know now, we are going to have to question you." Erwin suddenly said.

"Question me? Oh so now you think I played part in this? Real funny Erwin." You laughed, holding onto your head. Your eyes became wild, as if you were going insane.

"You were absent during the first day of the attack, and only appeared when the two men transformed. So yes, you look suspicious." Erwin replied, his voice suddenly becoming more emotionless.

You broke into laughter that was covered in tears. "You're so funny Commander! Or should I even call you that since I'm some imposter. Watch, I'll bite my hand and you will see me turn into a titan! You wanna see! I'll show you!" You started to shout, biting your hand aggressively. Since you weren't a titan, it only led to your hands bleeding profusely. You gnawed at your hand, almost to the bone before Erwin ripped your head away.

"Stop this at once. You are acting crazy!" Erwin said, pushing you onto the bed.

"Oh so now I'm crazy? First I am this strong soldier who let's my emotions take over me. Next I am a person who sees weird things. Than I am a titan. Now you say I am crazy. You are tripping sir, an absolute idiot." You scoffed, lifting yourself to your elbows.

Loud footsteps rushed into the room, grabbing onto your bloody hands. It was two men who restrained you, pulling you out of the room.

"You will regret this! I'm not a titan you f'ing idiot!" You cussed violently.

Erwin stared into your psychotic e/c eyes. He watched you being dragged into the basement, and into a cell. The two men closed their ears as you started to scream out horrible things about Erwin.

"That kiss, you kissed a titan. You are such a freak!" Those were the last words that came out of your mouth for a while. Your body dropped to the ground and you passed out, falling into a deep, heavily needed, sleep.

You haven't talked since you awoken, and also went on a hunger strike. Confusion crossed your mind as Erwin never visited you. You also had forgotten your whole episode, so the looks from the guards made you question yourself.

-time skip to after Historia was crowned queen-

"Let her out now please." You heard a calm voice say. Sitting on your bottom, with one arm on your bent knee, your eyes rose. It was Commander Erwin. He looked tired and beaten as he was previously held in a cell as well.

A guard opened the door letting you free. You rose to your feet and walked towards him. Stopping in front of him, Erwin gave you his cold stare. It sent endless shivers down your spine, and made you shake.

"Come along now, we have a meeting to attend." He said, placing his arm on your back. He guided you up to the main floor and to the meeting room where many other captains were sitting. They all gave looks of disgust and dejection. Awkwardly you sat down and turned your attention to the commander.

He started to explained the next expedition that would be taking place. "I will warn you all now, I have a very high chance of dying, and if I do, Hange will take my place."

Those words rang in your ears. Death, dying, taking my place. I will lose another person I love. Again, I will have to burry a comrade.

(A/N: only 2 chapters left!! thank you all for reading this far :))