his weakness

four

K E N Z I E

As I arrive home, the evening darkness envelops the surroundings due to our stop at the newly opened diner near to our school.

Stepping inside, an unsettling quiet reigns; the interior is shrouded in darkness, the lights unlit. Taking it upon myself, I flip the switches, illuminating the space, and call out the names of Nicole and Janice, hoping for any sign of their presence in the otherwise still house.

No one answers.

Which means I have the entire house to myself without them two. God I am so relieved, because if I came to them both home right now they wouldn't shut  up about where I have been and why I'm home later than usual.

It's frustrating how much Nicole involves herself in my life, mirroring her mom's attempts to pry into my affairs. I find it odd because I have very little interest in her life. Despite being just a year older, she insists on acting like a mom. Dealing with both of them is exhausting. I'm tired of their constant presence and interference.

I make sure to leave all the lights turned on because I'm a pussy when it comes to darkness and right now I'm home alone so anything can happen.

What if someone breaks in? What if a fucking ghost is here with me right now?

I have always had a fear of ghosts and they all came from the horror movies I have watched. And I still continue to watch them because there's too good to nor watch. But I always make sure to watch them when I'm not alone and not when everyone is sleeping.

I change into my shorts and oversized t-shirt getting super comfortable. There's not much I can do while I'm home alone apart from screaming my head off, blasting music and watching anything I like on the massive tv downstairs without being interrupted.

I'm not going to choose to do any of that, instead I'm going to read a book. I'm not a big fan of reading but I don't mind it either, I have a few books that my mom had gotten me last summer and I haven't read them even once. I tried to but I just couldn't, it wasn't boring it was me who wasn't able to focus on the book.

Everything kept interrupting me like text messages from Max, Paige and Alex or notifications from social media and I just gave up with trying to read the book.

But I turn my phone off completely so I can actually read this book and so far I'm struggling to keep my eyes open. It's not boring, I'm just tired. I think.

Fuck this, I give up with trying to read. I can't do anything other than watching Netflix, being on my phone and laptop 24/7. I seriously have no life.

You know what. I should find Nolan's account on social media. I wonder what his life is like, does he even post anything? It's crazy because a week ago, I barely even thought about him but now, he's all I can think about. If he wasn't staring at me the way I caught him, then I doubt he'd be on my mind.

Yes, I saw him beating another student up but I would've eventually gotten over that. It's just the fact that he knows of my existence now.

Getting comfortable and cozy, I lean against my headboard and scroll through my followers on Instagram. I find the guy, Manny, who Nolan passed drugs to in my Maths class. They clearly know each other so they must be following one another.

I try to search 'Nolan' into the search bar but no username familiar to his name comes up. Hm, maybe I should try Landon? He's another friend of Nolan and Chase's I'm assuming. I've seen them three around but I see Nolan and Chase together more. I know he's probably involved in something dodgy as well along with them two but I've actually talked to him before. Surprisingly, he's really sweet.