his weakness

thirty one

K E N Z I E

CHAPTER IS BEING REWRITTEN!!!

Hearing Nolan open up even in the most subtle way softened my heart in such a way, I could've cried for him. All the questions that I always wondered about where his family was instantly vanished once he told me they'd been murdered. It all makes sense, why he is the way he is. I mean, fuck, even I wouldn't be normal after that.

The thought of his dad purely just irks me, just even thinking about him disgusts me on a whole other level. How can one do that to his family?

We ended the night by having sex. But it wasn't just casual sex like we've been having as of recently. Well, it was never casual, at least to me, I didn't see it as casual but that's the 'label' that suits our situation the most.

It was my first time getting annihilated in a car and the tension that swooped over the atmosphere strongly made me feel so insanely connected to Nolan, for a minute, I thought we were interlinked. I swear I literally felt his heart beat against my own.

Since then, we haven't spoken. Things got a little awkward I suppose because he realised that I now know a very important part of his life.

It's definitely the last thing I do need right now since his cousin is coming over today. I've never met her before and so I have no clue what to expect. Is she going to be a bitch like him? Is she going to like or hate me? Who knows?

"Fuck. She's going to be here soon. She is actually going to be here." Chase mumbles to himself, walking repeatedly forward and backwards.

"Calm down. Stop stressing about her coming over. She's not going to kill you." I throw a single grape lightly in the air, catching in my mouth as I stay seated on a stool placed behind the kitchen island.

"I'm shitting myself. We haven't seen each other in ages and we KISSED last time we did!" He shouts 'KISSED' incredibly loud, sending his shaky voice to echo throughout the enlarged space we're currently waiting in. "Fuck me, I feel like a pathetic ball of female hormones."

I furrow my eyebrows at his last statement and give him a weird stare, trying to comprehend where he develops these silly thoughts from.

"What?! Stop looking at me like that." He stops pacing, grabbing the hair from his scalp within his fists.

"I'm sorry! But it depends on how she reacted after the kiss. Tell me and maybe I'll be able to get a hint if she likes you." I suggest.

"Oh well. It was at one of her and Nolan's family reunions. Nolan didn't want to go but I guess Vanessa convinced him. So he went but he took all of us with him, forcing me especially. It was at Vanessa's dad's house who's a fucking millionaire. We bonded by talking a lot, had a lot of shit in common but then I guess we found ourselves somewhere alone and just got carried away in the moment and kissed. She kissed me first, and I let her. It lasted for a good ten seconds and I guess after she realised what just happened so she ended up walking off." He lowers his voice in the last part. I feel sorry for him but it seems almost like the first ever kiss me and Nolan had. And now look at us. We both don't know what we are at the moment though.

"How long ago did this happen?" I ask.

"Oh.. uh.. maybe two years ago? I don't remember."