I can't be yours

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Now tell me why I keep writing Noah as Evan because he's Evan peters. Like tell me if I write Evan because I can't stop😭

Jenna.

It's been a few weeks since the Venus thing. I love Venus, me and him have been on and off and I still care for him. He comes to classes and everything I just don't know if he does his work. Our charms professor says that he needs to turn in stuff but he doesn't. It's worrying me because I know he gets stressed with work but I try and help him but the only people he wants to see are jasper and Hunter and sometimes violet.

I just want to be there for him and he never wants me there.

I sat in the common room waiting to go to astronomy which I usually have with Venus, violet and jasper but it's only jasper now. I quickly looked up to see jasper walking down but Venus walking behind him. I stood up as they both smiled but Venus seemed distant.

We walked as v stayed behind us- he didn't talk of anything until we got to class.

I sat down with Venus as jasper sat with violet but they looked off- uncomfortable if you will. Somethings up with them, I need to ask v later.

I looked to Venus as his head was completely turned to the front of the class- not even looking a bit at me. What the fuck is going on?

"You going to the Ravenclaw party tonight?" He interrupted as I jerked my head to him.

"Mhm, you?" I asked as our eyes met but he looked away back in the front as he nodded. Why won't he look at me? I thought we were like fucking and talking- if you could say. What's his problem?

As class finished it was now 10 and time for the party. I put on my dark purple skirt with a top and some rhinestones on my eyes with eyeliner. Ravenclaw parties are always full out because violet directs them so she always wants that really fucking fun theme. I put some glitter on my face as I walked out.

I saw jasper coming out of his dorm too. I guess Venus is already there, high. We greeted before walking through the corridors and down to Ravenclaw. Violet waited outside as she gave jasper a dirty look before smiling at me. Jasper walked in as I held violet back "you have to tell me later." I whispered walking in to the party.

People were making out on the tables and people were dancing in the middle of the room drunk and high. There were two sets of couches on either side of the room as I saw Lucille and Hunter talking as I headed over there. I walked passed the alcohol as I took a big swing walking over to them.

Boys eyed me from the sides of the room, it made me uncomfortable but I showed that it didn't bother me.

"Hey bitches." I smiled hugging them both before sitting down on the old leather couch.

"Hey, have you fucking heard about Potter and Lydia flint." Hunter gasped as I leaned forward.

"No! What the fuck? They are fucking? I would never had imagined." I scoffed Leaning back again.

Silence filled the air as I saw Venus come from the stairs as he was fixing his shirt as a girl followed behind. Wow.

"I am getting a drink." I stated standing up and going over to the alcohol. I quickly picked up- fucks sakes I didn't even know I just drank like half of it. I quickly went into the crowd of sweaty people as they danced and pushed people around.

I quickly found a guy as I pushed my body up against his. His hands moved down my body as I made eye contact with Venus from the top of the stairs as his pretty blue eyes met mine. He quickly ran down the stairs and to me. I turned around to face the guy and it was Noah Oh wow. He was beautiful.

I felt someone turn me around as I whipped around to see Venus "oh fancy seeing you here." I smiled as he scoffed.

"Fucks sake." He muttered grabbing me and pulling me off the dance floor.

"The fuck do you think you are doing?!" I spat.

"The fuck do you think you're doing! Cause I know you did not just dance with Noah!" He scoffed as I laughed.

"Yeah and what about it Malfoy. You were screwing a girl 5 minutes ago! Fuck off!" I pushed him walking back up as Noah smirked at me. "Hey so sorry-" I was cut off by him kissing me. His warm lips contacted with mine. I could taste the bitterness of alcohol in his mouth as he kissed me.

He pulled away as we made eye contact "what was that for?" I laughed as he smirked again. Something about that smirk.

"I wanted to." He walked off as I was left stunned.

"Noah-" I was cut off by Lucille turning me around to meet her eyes.

"Playing a game of would you rather come on!" She pulled me through the crowd as the people pushed alcohol onto people as we ran through holding each other's hands.

I sat down with everyone and a few other people as Hunter signaled for Venus and Noah to come over as I groaned. I really did not want to see him right now.

"Okay rules. If you don't want to answer the would you rather then you take a shot." Morgan pucey smiled as she Lined the shot glasses along the table in front of us as I made eye contact with Noah, he smirked before I turned my eyes back to the game.

"I will go first- jasper would you rather date violet or Morgan." Lucille giggled as she was already drunk out of her mind. Morgan and jasper have had a history- not a big one but one.

"Um fuck-" he cut himself off by picking up a glass and downing the shot. I looked over to violet as her face fell and shifted in her position. I need to see what's going on with them.

"Shit uh oh I know- Jenna!" Venus cheered as I rolled my eyes "would you rather fuck Noah or me." He smiled as I scoffed.

"Noah." I looked up to meet Noah's eyes as they pierced through mine. I looked away as Venus laughed.

"Yeah mate you think you are real fucking shit." Venus stood up towering over Noah as he stood up too.

"I do actually, I do Malfoy. Because I am. And what Malfoy? Are you upset that your girl wants to fuck me?" Noah laughed as Venus stepped closer as I almost got up but jasper held me back.

"I wanna see this." he whispered as I looked back to them.

"Oh do you want to fuck her that bad lovegood. I know you want to right? You want to hear her moan your name just like she did the other night in my dorm? Hm?" Venus declared as I covered my mouth.

"I do Malfoy, because I know it will make you insane that she won't be moaning yours." He snapped back as he sat back down signaling that it was over.

"Damn v." A random kid laughed. I think Venus knew him but I didn't.

"Shut the fuck up." He spat at them as he sat back down.

We played a few more rounds and I still have not got called on yet.

"Okay moving on, would you rather, Jenna, be the slut you are or be with Noah." Morgan snapped as I stood up rolling my tongue across my cheek.

"Say that again Morgan. Really slowly." I stood over her as she looked up at me.

"I said be a slut or be with Noah." She smirked before I smacked her across the face.

"Oh I'm the slut Morgan? Am I? Because last I recalled you fucked venus last weekend and never told Higgs." I spat as her face fell. "Fucking thought so."

I walked off before stopping by the alcohol.

See it's pretty ironic how my mum always said to stay away from the Malfoys and zabinis and notts. But I am literally best friends with them. I don't know what happened to make all of their parents hate my mom and Lucilles mom but it must've not been good.

Heyyy bestiesss