I can't be yours

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I seriously have the biggest headache so I will proof read this later because I can't rn so if there are any mistakes please Forgive me, I love you all goodnight.

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Violet.

"But did you talk to him more! Is he okay?!" I chased Luna around her house as she set down her keys and watering plants.

She finally turned around meeting my eyes "He's perfectly fine." She huffed as I suddenly felt like a burden, like I shouldn't be here or she didn't want me to be here. I stepped away "oh no darling, it's just been a long day, I promise you, you are completely fine." She kissed my hollow cheek before grabbing a glass of water.

It is 11 pm and Luna just got home from work. I bombard her with questions everyday about my brother and how he's doing. I know I should probably stop so I backed away and went to Noah's room, his room is very earth, meaning there is plants and books, vines shit like that. By the guy he puts off you wouldn't expect that his room looks like this.

I sat on the tufted seat on the floor that was bright yellow. He had his glasses on with a book in his hand as he looked up from his chair "Wanna talk about it." He offered as I played with my shinny skirt I still haven't changed out of.

"Um I am just- just worried about him, and I feel like he's getting better but I just don't know Noah." I stated as he shut the book sitting up more. His glasses hung low from his nose as his curly hair dangled in his face.

"You know that he's going to be okay, I promise v, I know you miss him and I know it's hard but that's what the experience is supposed to be for him, he has to be in a place where he can't do whatever the fuck he wants." He said softly as I nodded.

"Yeah yeah I know." I laughed as he smiled with me. Since I come here every night, me and Noah have developed a bigger relationship then what we did have before Venus left. He's now a really good friend I can talk to and love.

"Want to make a bucket list with me?" He asked as I smiled. He held up a piece of parchment as I stood up walking over to his desk. The glass tabletop held the paper on the top and you could see his pens and different papers that he journals with.

We thought of a few things before smiling and writing them down in a cool font on the paper.

Noah and violets bucket list

1. Get Noah to be good at charms.
2. Go to Paris and get violets favorite coffee.
3. Cliff jumping, most definitely doing that.
4. Cut down on parties.

"Woah woah, who said we should cut down parties, they are the best." He said referring to number 4 I just wrote down as I laughed.

"Because we need to do more stuff then get drunk every night and actually do stuff we will remember." I laughed as he sighed layed on the floor.

"I think that's enough goals for one night, also-" a strike of thunder stuck outside as it lit Noah's room. "Anyways, also we are going back tomorrow." He shrugged.

"I know, and I still have three more years, you guys only have two." I groaned laying on the rug next to him as he chuckled.

"Well at least you have Lucille." He smiled as I looked over at him. His hands were behind his head as he smiled but it quickly faded and noticed how close we are.

He chuckled awkwardly moving over a bit as I looked back up at the ceiling feeling so awkward right now.

"Hey what ever happened with the whole thing with your parents." He broke the silence as I took a sharp breath.