Shadowhunters One Shots

Roof Top

A/N- hehe

TRIGGER WARNING: SUICIDE

Alec POV

Alec found himself drunk that night, he didnt know how, but he did. He drank and drank and drank until he felt he was about to pass out. Magnus, Jace and Izzy had went out to Pandemonium for the day and he was left alone. He paid the bartender and left. The streets of New York was loud, too loud. He needed to get high up, away from the noise. He went to the roof of the institute, grabbing his bow and quiver. Firing arrows was like a comfort activity for him. When he was upset or nervous, he would go to the roof and shoot arrows. Magnus had quickly picked up on this habit of his and prohibited him to do so. Alec also wasnt able to drink, and if he did, it was only small amounts. He settled his bag of arrows down on the ledge and picked up his bow. He picked up one arrow at a time and fired them into the streets.

He did this until his hands bled and he couldnt hold the bow. He quickly traced his iratze, unaware that Jace was feeling all of it. He watched the cars zoom past, leaving bright trails of light. His eyes caught glimpse of the arrow bag and he couldnt look away. Thoughts came into his head, bad ones.

Do it

Grab it

Dont be here

Pathetic

Useless

"Go away," he audibly said. He wanted it to stop. He pulled his bag closer to him, arrows colliding together. He picked one out and touched the tip of it, making his finger bleed. He knew it was sharp enough to do what he wanted it to do. He held it in his hands, tip pointing to his chest.

Do it

Do it

Do it

He pushed it to his chest, a dot of blood forming around it. He pushed it deeper, pain coursing through his body. He liked it though, it only made him push it deeper. He stopped when his hands went numb and he fell backwards onto the roof. His unconcious taking over him.

Jace POV

They arrived at the Pandemonium shortly after leaving Magnus' apartment. He felt drunk even though he hadn't even bought one yet and he assumed it was Alec drinking with some Clave officials. They had fun, dancing, drinking, doing everything normal adults do. The feeling progressed to the point where he thought Alec was going to pass out.   Jace had had a couple more drinks before he got worried. There was a shooting pain in his hand, the same hand alec used to pull the string back on his bow. He was too drunk to actually consider that it was bad. The night went well, the pain had stopped and they were all having fun. He was going to get another drink when he heard it.

Do it

Grab it

Dont be here

Pathetic

Useless

He could hear Alecs thoughts. He realised that this wasnt a good day for alec and that he needed help. Magnus, being a warlock, was the most sober so he confided in him. "I think Alec is in trouble," he slurred. He shot up from his seat.

Do it

Do it

Do it

"Hes going to do something, he-" he said but was interrupted by the worst pain hed ever felt. He used all his senses to track Alec and tracked him to the roof of the institute. "Hes on the institute roof," he groaned as the pain got worse and worse. Magnus opened up a portal just as the pain stopped. He felt the burning of his parabati rune disappear and he knew what had happened. Alec had killed himself, he was dead. Jace tried not to shed tears as Magnus took his and Izzy's hands and walked through the portal. The arrived on the rooftop. Jace couldn't feel him, it was a strange feeling. For years he had gotten used to the tiny reminder that his brother was always with him and now, it's gone. His awhole world blurred as Magnus walked over to Alec, lying in a pool of his own blood, arrow sticking out of his chest. Izzy went inside, she didnt want to see the mess. Jace just stood there. Magnus looked up at him angrily. "Why didnt you say anything!" He yelled. Jace just looked at him with pity. "Why didnt you tell me what he was thinking! Why didnt you say what he was doing!" He kept yelling, making so many excuses. He was sobbing so much his words turned to slurs and his eyes turned bloodshot. Jace pulled the warlock into him and hugged him. "I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry," he said.