I'm fucking spiraling.
My dad goes from calling me rude and disrespectful and being absolutely mean to asking me how my day is and how I am and back again!
My fucking mom, as per usual, prioritizes phone calls over her damn kids, even shooing me away to finish her damn calls.
The only one I can rely on is my sister and I know I shouldn't, she has her own problems, she has her own pains and I'm not making them any better.
I'm so fucking stressed, I can't do work anymore without breaking down into tears and putting it off. I fucking relapsed! The one thing that I was trying to keep myself from doing, I broke down and just cut.
I feel so fucking pathetic everyday, I feel so alone and worthless and it hurts, it fucking hurts.
