I feel so unhappy, so unloved, unwanted, where did I go wrong.
I feel like everything was fine only a second ago, so why does everything hurt?
I wake up crying, go to sleep crying, self harm without thinking and shut myself in and away from other people, what happened to me?
What happened to the part of me that loved being outside, being with other people? Where did she go, and why won't she come back?
I feel lost without that part of myself, like everything is uneven, like one leg of a table is missing.
I just want everything to go back to normal, I want to feel normal.
I don't want to feel like my world is caving in on itself with every breath. I won't want to feel like I'm constantly being suffocated. I don't want to feel left out, I don't want to be the last one called for things, the last to find out about important things.
It hurts, it feels terrible.
