No, I'm not high, just here to talk about my high expectations of people and things and how 9.5 times out of 10 it never ends well.
Let's start with relationships and friendships. 2 failed relationships, and 2 or something failed friendships. Feels like shit Everytime but you know, guess that's what I get.
Then there's family. Everyone except my sister constantly breaks promises that they make but I guess that's my fault for thinking that anything would change.
It really must be that everything is my fault, otherwise it wouldn't happen so often. Hahaha, maybe I deserve it, I don't know what I did, but I'm sorry.
I don't want this shit life anymore. And if things keep going the way they are, I won't. Im perfectly fine killing myself, my parents won't have to hell at me for dishes cause I won't be eating while I'm dead.
I won't have to worry about the fact that pretty must everyone in my life has left me, cause I'll be dead. Being dead just solves so many of my problems and I wish I killed myself on new years instead of going to that party.
There's a lot of things I regret now that I think about it. I regret that I ever stopped cutting, it's a great destresser, helps get rid of negativity and it's fun.
I regret meeting a lot of people in my life, because maybe I would have been spared a fuck-ton of heart ache.
I regret trusting people. Because all they do is lie and stab you in the back.
Well, that's enough of that, I only wrote this because I was too lazy to get up and cut, not that anyone cares or reads this anymore.
Ha, I'm going to sleep now.
