All of my problems would go away if I died. It'd be great, I get to disappear from everyone's lives, the people that hate me get to live happily and I don't have to be in constant pain anymore.
If you really think about, me killing myself solves everything. Money problems? Gone. School stress? Gone. The underlying fear that I'll die alone and that all my friends hate me? Gone. The fact that every single fucking day I wake up and I want to go back to sleep and never wake up again? Gone.
Life would be so much better if I was dead.
....I don't think the meds are working..
