The Destruction of Love

The Revelation

Josephine POV

I wake up to find hard chest pressed against my check.Hero's hands wrapped around me securing me.I look up at Hero and see him still deep in sleep.His lips parted and light snores are the only sounds around the room.

I remember the events of last night how Hero gave me my first orgasm.The fact that he was so kind and gentle made it even more special.The kiss let's not even talk about it it's everything I dreamed it would ever be.

I snuggle into Hero's chest not wanting to leave this bed.We both have to leave to go back to London later today.

It will be kind of nice knowing it's going to be just me and Hero at the manor.

I look up and see Hero looking down at me he smiles but it's quickly replaced with guilt.

Why does he need to feel guilty every time he look at me?Does he regret what we did? I don't neither should he.

He stand up abruptly straightening himself up.It amazing how one person can change moods so quickly.

"I should get back to my room.Don't want our parents walking in.We leave for London at 3 so be ready." he says his tone dismissive and not even looking at me.

I guess I was just another one of his conquests great.

I don't even say anything I'm to ashamed to even utter a word to him.

What the hell was I thinking in bringing Hero into my room last night.I should have never kissed him.I should have just stayed numb.

The feeing of numb was even better than what I'm feeling right now.Right now I feel hurt and angry but worst of all heartbroken.

I wanted to feel something anything but this is just to much it's too overwhelming.I'm not sure if I will be able survive this much pain and hurt.

My head screaming NO to not kiss Hero and that I would forever regret it that it would not end well.My heart my heart said yes that I've been holding back to long and that I needed to do it.

I sigh getting out of bed and going to take a shower.I let the hot water run against my skin.I stay under the water until it is no longer cold.

While I'm in the shower I slide down the wall and just let the tears fall freely from my face.I've never so used and dirty.No matter how hard I try I can't seem to feel clean even though I'm already clean.I just don't feel that way.

Once I get out of the shower I get dressed in a pink sweater, jeans, and pink trainers.I curl my hair and do my makeup.I sigh when I notice the hickeys once I have to cover thanks to the asshole who is outside.

I do some light makeup because I really don't need my much my lips are swollen and my checks are flushed.

I get all of my things and pack them and swing the bag over my shoulder and take one last look at the room.All of the painful but beautiful memories I can't believe I allowed myself to do what I did with Hero last night.

I know I regret what I did I shouldn't but I do.He used me I was just another one of his conquests and they it hurts like hell.