The Destruction of Love

The Fields

Josephine POV

As we are walking towards the fields I notice Hero deep in thought.I thought we were through with this back and forth but I guess not.The only reason I even considering listening to him is because I know this I need this closure to move on with my life.

I need close the chapter on mine and Hero's story I can't deal with all of the pain he has brought me.What makes it even worse is the conversation I had with Annika and Melanie yesterday I realized Hero only said those things to hurt me.

Flashback

Annika and Melanie sit here holding me on my bed hugging me.This shit is so painful I don't know how anyone can survive heartache it feels like every single part of your body stops and even time and the only thing that is in motion is the painful memory of the person that you like playing over and over in your head like a broken record player.

Broken is what I am.

Letting Hero go was the hardest thing I have ever had to do he love someone else and I have to accept that.

"That dick!" Annika sneers and I can already imagine the hundreds of ways she thinking in hurting Hero right now.

"It's not his fault it's mine for being an idiot into thinking that he could actually like me." I sniffle and wipe my hand with my sleeve.

"Oh you two are so fucking stupid!" Melanie says irritation lacing her tone.

Annika and I look up at her and see she has a scowl on her face I raise a brow at her "Hero is in love with you he just lied because he doesn't want to ruin you because of the shit he's done in the past." She states I'm about to speak but she holds up a finger "Jo you're too selfless and naive to see that he has been in love with you since you were kids and so we're you and know we are going to get you out of this and show that asshole what he is missing until he grows a pair of balls and tells you his feelings.You two are the most complicated and confusing people on the planet Earth." Melanie states standing off the bed.

End of flashback

We go to the fields which are filled with flowers since it's early spring.Hero and me go to the center of the fields that have a long strip which look like mazes.We go to sit at the black bench we use to come here every time one of us was having a hard time and we usually have some of our best conversations here.

He always gave the best advice even though lately he can't seem to get his shit together.We go sit down.I out my hands in my lap and Hero slaps his palms on either side of his legs.He fidgets running his fingers through his hair.

Just get to the point Faulkner!

He sighs looking at me his brilliant green eyes meeting mine and once again I see the waterfall of emotions in them. "I lied." he states matter of factly. "I already know that but why?" I snap at him I really want him to get to point of this conversation.I'm afraid that if I stay any longer I might actually go against what my head is telling me to do and follow my heart am I can't follow my heart again.

"Because Jo." He croaks and cups my check the intensity of his stare is so hard and I can't seem to away. "I lied because I'm no good for you.I don't deserve you.I'm afraid I'll ruin you.I'm afraid my past will catch up to us and not only ruin me but you." he says his eyes glossy.