The Destruction of Love

The Fear

Josephine POV

I sit here stunned, shocked, and above and beyond with no words. I don't know what to think or say at this moment. All I know is that I could have never in a million years expected to hear such a thing g from Hero. But there is also a part of me very deep down that blames me for this.

If I would have just confessed my feelings for Hero early on instead of hiding them none of this would have happened. Selena would have never come into his life. Kendrick would have never manipulated him. He would have been happier. I would have been happier. We would have been happier.

That last one is the one that hurts most of all. We endured years of emptiness and sadness because we were both so scared that if we confessed our feelings for one another that it would destroy our friendship. That was silly if we think about it because we ended up destroying each other in the process of our relationship. Yeah because you were a selfish bitch my subconscious reminds me.

I know my subconscious is right but I also stick to my logical thoughts because everything happens for a reason and I also couldn't have known Hero's feelings for me were reciprocated. I also have to look at the facts it was better that Hero and I waited to be together because if we had been together when we were younger we would have done much more damage to each other than we already did.

I push the guilt and shock aside and finally, get the courage to look at Hero. I see him looking at me studying every feature on my face trying to gauge my reaction. I now do the same to him. I see he has guilt riding over his face for keeping such a big secret from me for so long. But I also see fear. Fear of losing me fear that I'll just walk away like I normally would. But behind all of that desperation, fear, and guilt. I see his love and adoration for me in his green eyes shining and more alive than ever before.

I take his face between my hands and straddle his lap. I bring my forehead against his. Tear fighting to come to the surface. I sigh and bring my hands because his neck touching his hair lightly desperate to feel him close. "I need to tell you something... we'll... two things..." I say sheepishly. I feel his body stiffen underneath mine. I know he's probably scared at what I'm going to say. He should only be scared at one thing I'm going to say. The other won't even matter because he should already know this. If I'm being completely honest with myself he's going to be filled with joy and relief at both of the things I have to say to him.

"First you need to know baby that I don't care about your past or if Max is your son. But I have a strong feeling that he isn't your son baby. And if he is I don't care I'll treat him as my own. And Selena and Kendrick are bitches, to say the least, but that baby boy shouldn't suffer the consequences because of his parents. I love you Hero and nothing could ever make me leave you." I say in a pleading tone begging for him to believe him. I don't even mask the desperation behind my voice. I will do anything in my power to convince Hero that I love him and I will never leave him.

I know he has a hard time trusting me because I left him six years ago with a broken heart, alone, and a desperate mind. Now it's my turn to return all of his patience, kindness, and forgiveness towards me. But I'm also doing this not just because I feel like I have to return the favor to him but also because I'm tired of overcoming so many obstacles. I'm tired of something coming our way. I just want to live in peace and be happy with Hero. We deserve an ounce of a bit of happiness and peace after the hell we've endured. And I feel like every day we are getting closer to it. I fell in the very depths of my heart that this is the last obstacle we will overcome. This is the last obstacle we will overcome. After this, we will be happy.