The Destruction of Love

The Night Club

Josephine POV

"No Henry for the last time. I'm not going." I say with finality in my voice and a bit of annoyance at his persistence. "C'mon Jo we haven't gone to a nightclub in forever." He keeps insisting. I glare at him and he mirrors my actions.

"C'mon Jo we hardly ever go out and you aren't that busy. Let's go out to the nightclub tonight." Henry says using those puppy dog eyes. I glare at him even more than I was but I can't help the smile that spreads across my face. "Fine.." I say giving in. He smiles and exits my office.

I throw my head back against the chair and groan. The last thing I wanted to do is go to a nightclub but I feel like a bad friend to Henry. He already has done so much for me. It's just been so draining being here in London not only do I have to deal with work but I also have to deal with Hero. Since all the hotels in London are booked due to some fashion show that's going on I'm staying at Hero's penthouse.

Hero and I haven't spoken much since the incident at the coffee shop yesterday. We might have had a moment if that's what you call it where I let him comfort me but that doesn't mean he can just say all those things and expect me to be okay with it.

I've been avoiding Hero since the coffee shop incident. I came here to win Hero back but at the coffee shop, I saw two sides of Hero. I first saw the old Hero who was angry and self-destructive. Then I saw the new Hero who was loving, kind, patient, and most of all understanding.

Last night I stayed here at the office longer than I normally do because I didn't want to go back to Hero's penthouse and see him. I don't know how to feel about him right now. I'm angry at him. I know that but I also know I'm in no position to be scolding him for something so minor he did compared to the gigantic thing I did six years ago.

But I also can't stop picturing him with that girl.

I sigh maybe I could use a little distraction going out is just what I need a few drinks to take down the edge. I'm not much of a drinker but I do drink every here and there to take all the tension away.

I just hope that we can sort this out soon and stop piling up all of our problems. We already have a list of problems that need to be solved and dealt with. We may have talked through some of those issues out but the main problem that we have is the problem and question that's been nagging at the back of my head.

Are we getting back together?

That is the question that I oh so desperately want the answer to. This whole back and forth space thing is starting to confuse me. I want to be with him. I know that and he wants to be with me. I know that we both have the same problem that we always have had we're both afraid.

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I look through my closet for about the hundredth time trying to pick out a decent outfit for tonight. My closet mostly consists of work clothes and my comfort clothes and a few dresses but other than that I almost have nothing to wear for a night out.

I tried on about three dresses a black, blue, and red. The black one was a spaghetti strap dress, it was one of my favorite dresses that I used to wear back in high school and it still fit me but ever since my pregnancy I've been very unconfident and just haven't felt the same about my body.

Hero never failed to make me beautiful and sexy whether it be from the way he would look at me, or by the way he would show me, or simply by telling me how much more beautiful I am with all my stretch marks and that they represent that how strong I was for carrying a baby and then he'd kiss them.

Enough about Hero!

I can't seem to shake that man no matter how hard I try. This was supposed to be a night out with Henry to have fun and let loose and live a little bit here. I am thinking about the green-eyed boy who stole my heart since I first laid eyes on him.