Blue Ribbon

Chapter 9 - I lost everything

"Golden child, lion boy; Tell me what it's like to conquer.
Fearless child, broken boy; Tell me what it's like to burn."

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One year later...

Lilly's POV

I am panicking.

So very much panicking.

I am in trouble. Big stupid trouble.

Fuck.

How could I be so damn stupid?

My pulse took off a sprint as I stared down at the birth control pack, to see three pills are still left. I am supposed to have finished them all by today, twenty-eight days passed, twenty-eight pills, but no, three are left, which means...Fuck, how did I forget to take it three days in a row?

Three freaking days!

Jesus, Lilly, how could you be so stupid?

I didn't even notice it when it happened.

I pulled my phone and with my hand shaking, I checked the calendar, my mind calculating and trying to remember when this must've happened. It had to be about ten days ago, I had my exams and my graduation project presentation, I was so stressed. I usually take the pill first thing in the morning, considering I wasn't sleeping well during that time, I probably just forgot to take them.

I am supposed to get my period in the following days, but what if I don't?

Oh my fucking god, I can't be pregnant, I just...just can't.

"Baby, I am gonna leave now," Christian's voice from the other room had me pushing the pack under the pillow, way too terrified to face this at the moment, "I will come back early, I don't have much work today, will you be here when I get back?" He asked, walking into the bedroom and toward me.

I gulped down and pulled my hair from all over my face as I stared back at him and nodded, "Probably...I have nothing to do today," Other than panicking over the possibility that you might've knocked me up because I was too irresponsible while taking the pills. Yeah, I definitely left that last part to myself.

"Okay, if you need anything call me," he added and I nodded, you know probably a pregnancy test on your way back home would do just fine. The thought alone had my panic level rising.

While Christian, totally unaware of the war raging in my head, leaned down and gave my lips a sweet little kiss before he left.

When I heard the main door shut behind him, I jumped up off the bed and started pacing around the room, this can't be happening, fuck, I am about to graduate in less than a month, I can't have an actual human baby. I can't. I am still a damn baby!

I ran my hand through my hair, messing it more as the anxiety rapidly ate at my inside. I paused in my steps and pulled my phone and dialed Sally, she has more experience with this than me. Maybe three days isn't that much, maybe...

Fuck, I can't deal with this.

"Sally," I said in panic when I heard her answer.

"What's up?" She asked, chewing at something.

"Are you home?" I asked as I opened the closet and pulled out a random pair of pants and a shirt to change.

"Yup, why? What are you doing?"

"Okay, don't do you dare go anywhere," I mumbled, holding the phone to my ear using one hand, and with the other, I pulled at my short and almost fell down, "I am on my way, it's an emergency."