Whole Again - poly!feral boys (DreamSMP)

fifteen

warning(s): mentions of sexual assault, oc has panic attack 

(This was actually something someone wanted to see in this book, so if I got anything wrong or it seems weird, lmk. Be safe. :) )

I yawn, stretching out as far as I can.

The bed is cold.

Both of the boys are gone.

As I sit up, I hear screaming.

Well, that would explain it.

I can hear Sapnap blasting Roadtrip.

It is a banger, and I'm so proud of Clay, but this isn't really the way I want to wake up.

When I check my phone, I notice the date.

A sudden chill goes down my spine, and I shudder just looking at it.

Two years ago, I was assaulted at a party.

I still don't know what his name was, but what he did still messes with me.

Instead of getting up and showering like normal, I pull the covers back over my head.

I turn on my phone, noticing that Clay is streaming.

Listening to him, Sapnap, and George makes me feel a little bit better.

Their voices make me sleepy, and I feel myself drifting back asleep.

Soft footsteps make my ears perk up, but I don't move.

The bed sinks to my left.

"Morning, sunshine.", Sapnap nuzzles up to me.

I know it's Sap.

My boyfriend.

Who I love very, very much.

But.

His hands on me makes me want to throw up.

I stiffen under his touch, but I stretch again to disguise it.

"Morning.", I whisper back, rubbing at my eyes.

"You feeling okay? You slept in really late.", there's a slight frown on his face.

"Yeah, yeah.", I shake my head, dismissing his worry.

I tuck my hair behind my ears, crawling out of bed.

"Do you want anything to eat?", Sap grabs my hand as I try to rush to the bathroom.

I accidentally pull away, a look of hurt flashing in his eyes.

"Uh. I'll find something after my shower.", I tell him before shutting the door behind me.

I can't do this today.

Sapnap's POV

I enter the office, plopping down in my chair.

George and Clay are still at the xp grinder when I tab back in, my character in the AFK spot.

The stream has ended, so I don't feel so bad being gone.

"I'm back.", I announce into my mic, mainly for George since obviously Clay can see me.

"Hey, give it back!", George yells at Clay when he accidentally tosses his sword instead of some spider eyes.

Clay silently tosses it back, not even teasing him.

"Finley up?", George asks suddenly.

Clay turns to look at me, curious to know the answer also.