Wish You Were Here

Chapter 2

They arrive back at the house and Alex walks around the car and removes Meredith from the car. Her body is limp, like a rag doll. She doesn't try to hang on, she doesn't really want to hang on. Alex carries her into the house and up into her bedroom. He places her on her bed and stands there for a moment. Meredith doesn't acknowledge that she has been moved. She doesn't acknowledge Alex. She just lies there in the position which Alex places her. She is numb on the exterior but on the inside she is fraught with pain. Alex takes one last look at her before he quietly exits the room, closing the door behind him. He is instantly met with the pleading faces of her friends.
Izzie: Well?
Cristina: Anything?
Alex just shakes his head no.
Alex: Dude, she's screwed up.
Izzie hits him in the shoulder.
Alex: Hey! What was that for?
Izzie: For being an ass.
Alex just shrugs.
Alex: I just call it like I see it.
Cristina: Shut up, Alex. Go get us some liquor.
Izzie looks at her.
Izzie: But Meredith can't drink.
Cristina: The liquor is for me. If I am going to be here all day I am going to need some liquor.
Izzie's mouth drops open in disbelief and Alex just nods. Cristina yells at him as he is opening the front door.
Cristina: Also get some strawberry ice cream, a box of Kleenex, and every kind of chocolate you see.
Alex arches his eyebrow in question.
Cristina: We have a broken person to fix. Don't question, just go!
Alex walks out the front door and Izzie and Cristina slowly open the door to Meredith's bedroom. She doesn't look up. She doesn't move. Her eyes are open but unseeing. She is staring off into space.
Cristina: Meredith?
Nothing.
Cristina: Come on Meredith, just talk to us.
Still nothing.
Cristina and Izzie leave Meredith alone. They walk downstairs and sit in the kitchen.
Cristina: I'm going to kick his ass. I swear, I will hunt down his sorry ass and castrate that sorry son of a..
Izzie: Cristina!
Cristina: What? He broke her.
Izzie: But she still loves him.
Cristina: How do you know that?
Izzie: Because if she didn't, she wouldn't be hurting this bad.
A couple of hours pass and Meredith still hasn't moved or spoken to anyone.
Izzie: We have to do something. She isn't even crying. She is just...
Cristina: Lying there, like she's dead.
Izzie: Maybe she feels dead.
Cristina: Whatever.
It is now dark outside and Meredith remains in the same condition. Cristina stands up from the table.
Cristina: That's it.
She walks up the stairs and into Meredith's room. She jumps on the bed.
Cristina: I know you are hurting or whatever, but don't let that ass break you. He isn't worth it.
Izzie is standing at the door and walks into the room. She sits down on the bed next to Meredith.
Izzie: She doesn't mean that, Meredith.
Izzie shoots Cristina a glare.
Izzie: Meredith? Look this isn't just about you anymore. You are now responsible for someone else. You haven't moved or eaten all day.
Silence.
Izzie: Look, Meredith, if you aren't going to do it for yourself, think of the little life that is now growing inside of you.
Meredith looks up at Izzie and nods silently.
Izzie: Good. Now, what do you want to eat?
Meredith just shrugs and soon her body begins to shake as sobs overtake her tiny frame. Izzie lies down on the bed and begins rubbing her back.
Izzie: It's okay. We're here for you Meredith. We aren't going anywhere.
Meredith (gasping): I...why...I...can't....breathe....I....need....love....I....Derek....Oh God.....
Meredith continues sobbing for another fifteen minutes until she is too exhausted to cry anymore. She looks at Izzie.
Meredith: I'm fine.
Izzie: I will let you get away with that for now. What do you want to eat.
Meredith rubs her stomach.
Meredith: Pizza?
Izzie: Okay. I will go and order it.
Meredith nods and Izzie leaves the room, leaving Cristina and Meredith alone. Cristina walks over to the side of the bed and places one arm over Meredith's shoulders.
Meredith: You know this constitutes hugging.
Cristina: Shut up. I'm your person.
Meredith sighs.
Meredith: Yeah. You are.
Cristina: Look, you don't have to do this alone.
Meredith: What?
Cristina: The baby. We are all going to be here for you and if you tell anyone I said that I will kill you.
Meredith just smiles, her first smile since she found out.
Meredith: Thanks.
Cristina: No problem. Now, I'm starving and slightly drunk, so let's go eat.
Meredith: Let's.
Cristina helps Meredith up off of the bed and they walk downstairs to join Izzie and Alex. Meredith looks like hell, but no one says anything. They all look at each other and make a silent pact that no matter what, Meredith will not be doing this alone. Izzie smiles and hands Meredith a cup of hot tea. Meredith grasps the cup in her hands and takes a sip.
Izzie: So, do you think I will have a little niece or a nephew?
Meredith smiles at Izzie and silently thanks Izzie for avoiding the topic of Derek. She can't do anything about the fact that he is gone, but she can try to be the best mother possible. That is what she decided during those hours up in her room. Her little baby is going to be loved.
Meredith: I'm hoping you will have a little niece, but as long as he or she is healthy...that is all that matters.
They all smile at her and know that she is still broken, but eventually she will be okay. A part of her will always be missing, but the little life that is growing inside of her will help to fill the vast void that has been created in her life by Derek's abandonment.
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