Not quite suicidal

sorry this chapter is short

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"Oh really...what's his name. Tell me about him" anthony asked.

"He helps me through a lot of things when I need help. He's the person who basically helps me when no one else does"

"Does that include your boyfriend?"

"What"

"Does your boyfriend help you?"

"...n-no. But its all good"

"Man your blind aren't you"

"Wjat?"

"The guy who helps you through everything is the one you should be with. Not the one who causes you to go to him for help"

"Its complicated..."

"Says the girl who was smiling a lot more when she was talking about the guy who helps her through all the bullshit"

"*sigh* I see your still a pain in the ass" j said squinting at him and laughing.

He sat back and raised his hand surrendering. I laughed.

"So what bed is mine again?" I asked

"You can take the top one for tonight."

"Thanks "

I put all my things on the top bunk and he laid down on the bottom one. The room is small,  painted brown over the color that was there before and you could easily tell, and the bunk was the only thing in here besides a small TV and a tiny cabinet.

When I heard Anthony snoring I was getting a call from someone on Skype. Me and Johnathan downloaded it to video chat every night. I awnsered it with for some reason a big,smile on my face

"Hi" I said happily.

He was wearing a black tank top but he was also hugging a pillow while hididng like half his face and his nose looked so fucking adorable and his muscles pressed against the fucking pillow made his arms look more muscular and inside I'm mentally flipping out but on the outside I'm trying to be cool with it. Whew.

He smiled cheekily. The bastard.

"Sup ausie! I missed you"

"I've only been gone for like...three hours...maybe four"

"As is I can't miss you. If I miss you after five minutes than imagine me missing you at four hours"

"Haha I guess your right man."

I sat up criss crossing my legs. I put my hands in my lap and put my hair to the side.

"Beautiful." He said squinting.

"Fucking hell. You think everything is beautiful"

"With you only though. Believe me.".

"Haha and fucking hell Johnathan you got them muscles haha"

"Shush. I hate them"

"You hate your muscles?"

"There such small muscles" he said squishing them

"Haha. Hey shut up. There great" I said with a thumbs up

"Haha thanks ausie. So how's the home"

"Ugh. You make it seem like I'm old haha. But...eh its alright. They moved me and Toby in different rooms and I'm sharing a room with an old friend from Australia"

"Who?"

"Um..."

I looked to see if he was awake but I saw him squinting so I couldn't see him awake. I chu lled and typed it instead of saying it outloud