Not quite suicidal

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Johnathan's pov:

I have to stop feeling things for her.

I have to stop feeling things for her.

I have to stop feeling things for her.

That's all that went on in my mind as me and sky ate food. She sat in front if me at the booth. Friend zoned? She had them chicken tenders and I had a little hamburger. I gave her my fries since she loved them so much. I love them too but...I love her more.

Fucking hell I need to stop myself from having feelings for a girl who is in a happy relationship. I don't wanna be that douche who messes up a relationship with a girl who is...happy. Even if it kils them...they have to let the love of there life be happy.

"So how's the foster home?" I asked

"Eh...I'm not it's biggest fan but haha"

I laughed and she looked up at me from the table

"So how was school today?"

"Um...well...I might not go to school anymore..."

"What? Why?"

"There's no reason for me too go now"

"huh?"

"The day we met I didn't want to go to school...I hardly went...but the day you went to school and we met for the first time...I somehow knew that I made the best decision in going"

"You did?"

"Mhm...I never go to school unless there's something there that I look forward too"

"What is there to even look forward to in that hell hole"

"Looking forward to seeing someone"

"Who did you look forward to seeing?"

"...n-no one...no one"

"Really? Than what made you look forward to going to that hell."

"To me it hasn't exactly been hell since you've been there. Like I know its only two days that you went to that school but...those two days were the best to be honest. And I only went there to protect you. I don't like the fact that there's people in that school like Britney"

"Aww. But seriously...I can protect myself. Even from Britney."

"I know you can. But I don't wanna let you battle her alone. No matter how tough you are...you need someone to be by your side."

"Well I grew up with no one at my side. But thanks for being that one person."

"That one person?"

"The one person who could savee from this hell also known as teenage years. Or puberty heh"

"Sky?"

"Hmm"

"Why don't you ever laugh..."

"What do you mean"

"You only chuckle...you never laugh..."

"Really?"

"Mhm. I wish I could see you laugh more"

"Why?"

"Because one, laughing means you enjoy the presence of the person who is by you...I wanna know you actually enjoy my presence. And two... I've hears your laugh once or twice...I'd like to hear it more"

"I don't really...like my laugh"

"Why?"

"Because I sound like a during donkey"