Not quite suicidal

.Hospital again

Johnathan's pov:

I sat in the hospital waiting for the doctor's to come out with some good new's. Ruben was here too. Fuck. He didn't even care. He just sat there texting whoever he has been texting. It got on my nerves.

My leg's kept moving. I was so nervous. I had already practically ate my nail's off. Cracked my finger's one too many time's. I hope she's alright in there. She need's me in there. She can't be alone. She needs someone who cares about her in there. Me.

The doctor came out about half an hour of me giving Ruben a dirty look.

"She's okay...but uh...she might not exactly be in the best shape...for now. But your perfectly fine to go see her." He said.

I smiled acnologing that I was perfectly okay with that.

"Uh kid. Would you mind like...jogging her memory. You know, talking about some family...friends....we usually don't do this but with her it's kind of important." The doc said to me

I nodded and stood up. Ruben was walking behind me but the doctor stopped him by putting his hand on his chest.

"Uh...sir. I think her boyfriend should go in first. Only one person may talk to her."

I smiled so fucking big, but then I stopped smiling because of the thought of me and sky being a couple was amazing yet...I knew I can't do that to her.

I walked in and sky was looking up at the ceiling. She had the mask on, she had IV needles in her arm, the little weird things that grip around her fingers. She looked terrified.

I walked to her side and smiled at her.

"Hi you" I said holding her hand

"...J-johnathan?"

"Yeah...it's me ausie" I smiled

"...w-where am I?"

"The hospital"

"...what happened?"

"Oh um...you lost a lot of blood...you might be whoozy for a bit...but don't worry...I got ya"

She smiled. She was actually comfortable with me. I mean she lost a bit of her memory so she doesn't exactly know everything between us so.

"Thanks haha..." We stayed like that just happy I guess. I mean I was happy but I'm not sure if she is.

"so uh...who are you exactly to me?" She asked

"A...a friend..."

"A friend. Cool. Haha. So who else would I need to remember. Family? Love?"

"Well...the doctor did say I can tell you a couple things. Uh, well your mom and dad um....I'll talk to you about that later...it's.... Really a long story heh. You have a little adorable as hell brother named Toby...and you uh...you have a boyfriend. I'll tell you the rest later. Right now doesn't seem like the right time."

"A boyfriend? Who?"

"R-ruben. He's outside in the waiting room"

"Why isn't he in here?"

"The doctor said only one person at a time."

"Ah. And you beat him to it haha"

"Haha. I guess"

We talked for like ten more minutes than I had to leave the room. Ruben went in after me but came out after like three minutes. I hated how he's her boyfriend yet he doesn't even care about the time he spends with her....

Holy shit I'm smotherin here ain't I. Fuck. I need to back off. The doctor walked up to me and scribbled something on his board than looked back up at me.