Not quite suicidal

Wake up?

Sky's pov:

Every day I cried for Johnathan for a month. So far no sign of him waking up. The doctors tried everything they could. Still no sign.

Today was the day they would pull his plug. I pretty much gave up at this point. I was wearing my grey sweats,  a black tank and a normal grey sweater. This seemed like something Johnathan would wear so...I decided to wear it.

I was looking at myself in the mirror. I've been crying all night so I look like hell. The usual. I feel like I'm going to a funeral. But this is worse.

I know he's going to go away foreever but I'm watching it happen before my eyes. When I'm giving my self a death stare in the mirror, Ruben walks in and putttjnf his hands around my waist.

"You ready?" He said laying his head between my neck and shoulders

"...no" I mumbled

"It'll be okay. I promise." He mumbles into my neck

"...hopefully"

He smiled to me through the mirror and I slightly smiled back.

"Let's go" he said. I nod and we walked out the house. Toby was with his friend. So he's not in the house right now.

Me and Ruben rode the bus to the hospital. I looked out to the window and it was a gloomy grey sky. Seems like the world is sad about loosing Johnathan to.

When we get to his room there's nurses there. They see us and smile. They walk out leaving me, Ruben and the doctor alone with Johnathan.

Johnathan looked so peacefull. He looked happy. Yet scared. I walked up go him by the bed while Ruben went to sit in the chairs looking as if he was about to cry.

I looked at Johnathan again. I put my hands behind his head and ran my fingers through his hair.

"I'm sorry" I whispered which seemed to be the 100th time.

The doctor looked at me worryingly

"...are you ready?"

"I guess" I whispered

He nods with a smile and looks back at this little machine by Johnathans bed. I think it was his life support. The doctor presses a few buttons and looks at me

"Its done...but it'll be about five minutes before...you know"

"Okay. Can me and my friend get a moment with him alone?"

"...sure" he smiles and walks out the door

I look at Ruben for a minute

"Got anything to say to him?" I ask

"...nothing at all" he quickly gets up and walks out into the hall.

I stood there for a minute just comprehending what happened. He just left. He left me when one of my best guys friends was about to leave my life forever. He left Johnathan right now. Right now.

I faced Johnathan. I talked to him for about two or three minutes about how much I'm going to miss him. About how much he has done for me and how grateful I am. I looked at the countdown thing.

10 seconds left

I looked at Johnathan.

"Bye" I stood up and looked at him. I couldn't help it. I hugged him. I stood back up and looked at him once more. I looked at his lips. I felt like I needed this once. Just...once.

I crashed my lips onto his cold ones. It was different. Even though he's to buzy being unconscious to kiss me back I felt weird.

I pulled back and watched the clock turn to three. I walked to the door. Just as I was halfway out the door I heard something