Not quite suicidal

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Sky's POV:

I walked out the hospital after leaving Toby in this mini daycare of some sort. I ran to the park because I really need a hug right now.

When I get to the park ,after almost being hit by twenty fucking cars, I see Ruben. He had some skinny khaki  pants on with a galaxy tank top and a beanie. Oh my gosh. *dies*

I walked up to him and gave him a hug. I realized I still had my sweats on. Crap. I looked back up at him after pulling back from the hug.

"Have you been crying!?"

"Uh...n-no why"

"Your eyes are watery, puffy, and fucking red. What happened? And these bumps and bruises! Sky..."

"...there from my dad..."

"You dad? Why would he do this to you?"

"Uh...I...I-I was being a bad daughter at the time, it's nothing"

"Sky it's isn't just nothing. To me its everything " he grabbed my arm were I cut. It stung so I flinched while looking down at it. He gave me worried look and rolled up my sleeve and saw my cuts. When he saw them he looked at me with teary eyes.

"Why.the.FUCK.do you do this"

"...I deserve it"

He threw my arm. So...Johnathan,not my boyfriend,kisses my cuts. Jackass over here...just throws my arm. What the actual fuck.

"You don't deserve this."

"Pretty sure I do."

He just sighed and shook it off

"So what happened. Yano with your dad and all"

"It...it wasn't just me. He hit my friend...the one that was in class"

"Johnathan!? Were is he!"

"Hospital. You wanna come? I don't wanna be alone"

"Sure. Y-yeah of course"

We walk a bit till we get there. He tried to avoid looking at my arm. I don't know why he just started acting like this.

When we got inside I walked up to the lady

"Um...do I just go to Johnathan monroe's room or"

"Um...*bites lip* not right now honey."

"No no no. That's bad isn't it. That means something happened. What happened?"

"Nothing. Just sit"

"I can't just sit! I need to see him!"

"Do I need to call security?"

"Go fucking. Call them! I'm still going to see him!"

"You can't!"

"Why not!"

"Because he...he...I'm sorry"

"Oh my god..." I gasped and almost fell backwards but Ruben caught me. I started crying. I never cried this hard before.

We didn't really know what happened with him till about two hours later. A doctor came out and told the lady at the check out/in

"Mr.monroe, concusion. Mind putting that in his file?"

I gasped and everybody heard me I bet. Everything was screwed up now. Nothing was smiles anymore. Life's fucking hell. Fuck.

I sobbed into Rubens shirt. Be was going to spend the night with me to make sure im going to be okay.

When he came over we fell asleep. To be honest...I prefer falling asleep with Johnathan. Like even though me and Ruben are going out ,or whatever we are, Johnathan had this weird pleasant feeling sleeping next to him.

"Babe?" He muttered

"Hmm"

"What do you think'll happen with Johnathan" he said playing with my hair

"I don't know...maybe....maybe he'll wake up. I kind of want to go tomorrow to visit him"

"Really? You want me to come?"

"No no. I kind if wanna go alone..."

"S-sure. That seems like a good idea"

"Yeah"

We talked a bit more about our futures, our past love life, everything. We stayed up all night talking about everything.

I woke up the next morning with Ruben laying there. He had bed hair. So cuteeeee. He was drooling a bit. I smiled to big for my face.

I ran my hands through his hair. He smiled and hugged me tighter. I smiled again. I kissed his cheek and got out of his grasped than stood up.

today was the first day in a couple of days were I won't talk to Johnathan. It feels weird...and I've only known him for two days.