Not quite suicidal

More smut??? wtf

~like if you love p!atd, fob, sws, bvb or any of that type of music~

Sky's pov:
I loved what happened between Johnathan and I today. I hate that i'm with Ruben though.

There's something about Rubem that has me running back...I don't know what it is but it has me coming back.

It's noon now and little kid shows are on. Stuff like Team omi zoomie, some animated dog show, some little talking human rocks...

I miss Toby.

"How do you think Toby's doing at the orphanage?" I asked

"I bet he's doing fine. But hey, you should bring him around sometime. I miss the lil fella."

"I miss him too. There's rumors that they're sending kids 10 and under to Arizona. I'm kind of worried."

"Don't be...I bet right now he's out back in the orphanage playing with sand. Hey he might be making a new girlfriend. Ya never know."

"Knowing Toby- he's probably scaring all the girls away asking 'you wanna see my boogah!' Haha"

"Haha, boogah?"

"It's his word for boger."

"Haha. Oh god he's weird. I miss him."

"I do too..."

"He's gonna be a real lady's man one day watch hah"

"Heh...thank's to Ruben."

"Okay what happened between you and Ruben?"

"He just started saying shit like 'Women belong in the kitchen' and it just pissed me off."

"That's stupid...he actually said that?"

"Mhm."

"That's just fucking bullshit...girls belong in the bedroom watching tv and relaxing while boys are cooking. Girls should be fucking worshipped. I mean they got a baby with a big head coming out of them and periods? Shit I would bring my girl candy-pizza-chips-soda-movies-cuddles-and more movies...anything to make my girl feel better. I wouldn't want my baby to be in pain."

"You would be the best boyfriend Johnathan...believe me any girl would be happy to be with you."

"Not every girl..." he said raising his eyebrows and chuckling

"Heh. Well I would set you up with a girl if every girl at school didn't hate me."

"They love you." He said boping my nose

"Heh. And they love you."

"Dude why are we even talking about this?"

"I have no clue. Haha."

"Heh...well you wanna watch a movie? I have plenty."

"Sure. Watcha got?"

"Um...knowing....kings of summer...killing kennedy...um...freddy vs jason"

"Oh god no. That movie makes me shit my pants everytime."

"Why?"

"Because it's fucking freddy...I mean there are no jumpscares and lets face it that movie needed jump scares but that movie still makes me jump."

"aww. You're scared!" He joked

"I just get a bit scared."

He laughed too and I kept staring at his little crinkle by his lip...which was honestly hot.

"Lets watch the fucking scary movie than. Ready to shit my pants. Haha."

He smiled, walked to the dvd player, and put the dvd in.

The movie started and I was clutching a pillow. In the scene where the girl just found her friend dead and dtarted crying I started crying.

"Are you crying?" Johnathan said

"Um...no...no." I said trying to wipe the tears away before he could see them.

"Aww...you're crying." He said chukling

"No i'm not."

"Yes you are! Aww come here." He said awwing

I popped out my bottom lip and put my head on his lap.

After a while I realized I was clutching his thigh. I heard a couple groans come out of him every couple of seconds.

I sat up akwardly.

"Um...sorry." i said

"For what?"

"Dude your erection is popping out your pants making your dick look like an anacoda."

"That bad?"

"That bad."

"Haha. Well...I think I better try and go...fix....that little problem." He chuckled while standing up

"Um johnathan?"

"Yes?"

"does 'fixing' mean masturbating?"

"Oh god."

"Well."

"It may...have some familirarities."

"So masturbating?"

"Exact-a-mungo."

"And why do you have to fix the problem?"

"...huh?"

"Do you really have to masturbate?"

"Unless you like anacondas."

"Well...to be fair...anacondas are..."

"Wait are talking about what I think were talking about?"

"If you want it to be."

"But what about Ruben?"

"Eh...I guess he doesn't have to know."

"No I mean like...you're still in a relationship with him...I don't want to go behind his back and do this...especially when things are cooling off with me and him."

"What is up with one of us not wanting it and the other doesn't but than later they want to but the one who did want to do it doesn't want to do it anymore."

"We're just dumb."

"Plain and simple."

"Haha. Well...I still don't want to go behind his back...no matter all the things he's done."

"What has he done?"

"I just...have alot of trust issues because of him...but in the long run he is a great friend."

"I barely knew him for a day before he asked me out...barely one period. Haha. I can't wait to go back to school."

"Its gotten pretty boring since you left. I mean theres no one to be rebelious with haha."

"Believe me when the teachers see us together again they will run like the wind. Haha."

"Haha...so we cool?" He asked

"Depends...I mean Ruben didn't exactly fufill my needs." I smirked

He chuckled and looked at me with his eyes full of lust.

"So what movie should we watch now?" He asked

"what?"

"Well...I don't want to fuck a girl if she doesn't...i'd rather be called a gentlemen than a rapist yano"

"...you seriously are a gentleman...you respect girls."

"They deserve to be respected..."

I'm literally so thankfull for Johnathan

"So what movie." He added