Not quite suicidal

I cant be weak

Sky's pov:

It's day 2 of johnathan still being in a coma. It's only day 2 and I feel like it's been forever. Everytime I think about him not waking up, I wanna cry...

I woke up and had a dream about me, Johnathan, and Toby going to Australia. I missed that place. I miss Johnathan. I miss the way things were.

When my mom and dad thought I was happy. When they thought I actually ate. I miss it when Toby was there for me more than anyone. But over all...

I miss Johnathan.

I miss talking to him. More than anything. More than living in Australia. If he never wakes up, I don't know who I would be able to trust. I don't know who I'll be able to talk to. I just don't know.

I'm laying in my bed. I'm hugging the pillow Johnathan slept on and wearing the jacket he let me have. I felt like crying. I don't know. I just did. I needed to hug him. I needed to talk to him.

I need to see him.

I stood up and went over to my closet. I put on some black short shorts, a loose white and black fall out boy shirt and some boots that kind of food at the bottom. I wore a fall out boy, pierce the veil, and sleeping with sirens bracelets.

I feel badass. Again. I'm supposed to go back to school tomorrow but the school called me a while back saying that apparently they understand what I'm going through ,fucking lies, and that they were gonna give me a few days off.

I decided to go to the hospital everyday till Johnathan wakes up. I rode the bus all the way there. When I got there I just continued to walk to his room. Not looking at the lady, nothing. Just kept walking.

When I got to his room he was starting to look better. His scars and scratches seemed to be going away. See, when my dad had beaten Johnathan him and my mom went to a fancy restraunts and my dad wore these really like pointy shoes.

So when he beaten Johnathan the scars that are worse than normal. He hit Johnathan a few times in the head so...no shit he was in a coma. Shit.

I sat by Johnathan for two hours than I got hungry. I looked over at him. I ran my fingers through his hair and smiled

"I'll be back" I whispered. I stood up and walked out into the hallway. I sighed. I walked down the hall to a little cafe they have in the hospital.

I walked up to the register, ordered a bagel and a coke, than sat down. I waited for a minute, scrolling through tumblr, and than someone sits down at the chair across from me. I slowly look up and it's Ruben. What.the.hell.

"What do you want Ruben" I muttered lowering my phone

"I need to talk to you"

"About what"

"You know what. I'm sorry"

"Something could've happened to him."

"nothing happened though" He said laughing

"Don't...just don't"

"aww c'mon sky. You know you miss me"

"Not really, no"

"admit it...you can't get me off your mind."

"Something like that" I said. It's weird...he isn't the thing on my mind most of the time. It's Johnathan who is.

"Something like that. *scoff* You...you are a piece of work sky...you know that"

"Not exactly the nicest person. I'll admit that."