nihilism (miya chinen x reader)

MY LOVELY///CHAPTER TWENTY ONE

the boat ride home was pretty boring, well at least that's what y/n thought. "come on, miya! admit it already!" reki exclaimed, trying to get answers from the poor boy. luckily, y/n hadn't been next to the group, instead sitting by the railing watching the ocean flow by. miya brought his switch closer to his face, making a desperate attempt to hide how flustered he was. "shut up, slime. there's- there's nothing to admit, alright!?" he huffed, nudging reki away from him. "sorry kid, you're down bad. maybe even worse than shadow with his manager." joe added, causing shadow to roll his eyes. "see! even joe agrees! c'mon, confess to her!" reki, now, had his hands grasping miya's shoulders, shaking him around. "be quiet!! there's nothing to confess!" reki sighed, sitting back down shaking his head. as everyone went back to doing their own things, miya turned to the young girl. she was sleeping. he couldn't help but smile at the sight. there she was, arms and legs wrapped around the pole in front of her as she leaned on it, a peaceful look on her face.

okay,

maybe he did have a little to confess to you.

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"c'mon, tell me what you like about her. i promise, it'll stay between us." joe pried, as he cleaned up his counter. miya, who had been sitting at his restaurant, was simply playing on his video games. maybe it would be nice to get it off my chest.. he thought. he never was very good at expressing his feelings, in all honesty. he sighed, trying to focus on his game as he spoke. "you're a real idiot.. i guess i.. well she's really funny... and she's always good at understanding how i feel, cause she's gone through a lot. she apologizes for everything, even though it's never her fault." miya was focused, he had pretty much forgot he was even speaking to joe. occasionally pausing to try to sort his emotions out, while he held his game, no longer playing it, just staring at it. "whenever she likes something, she always goes on these tangents about them, i swear i've listened to her talk about a single song for hours. and you know how caring she is because of how she takes care of her little sister! and she always responds to texts quickly. she always tries to reassure me that she won't leave.. and that i'm safe with her.. and she- she always makes me feel so important.. and even when she looks like a total mess i still think she's the most beautiful thing i've ever seen. she gives me this.. this stupid feeling in my stomach.. and my heart.. and i can never- i can never get her out of my head.." he turned, remembering that joe had been behind him.

but there was no joe there.

only you.

joe had forced you to come to the restaurant, then made you hide behind the counter as he tried to get miya to spill his feelings. which, somehow, had worked. "uh- i- i- y/n.." he panicked, tears welling in his eyes. were you going to hate him? had he just ruined your friendship? "miya..." before he could even process the situation, your arms were thrown around him. "i love you, miya." he paused, before tightly wrapping his arms around you. "dumbass. i- i um... i love you too.."

you were a total loser.

and he absolutely hated the feeling you gave him.

but, it was you.

so he figured it'd be okay

END/// nihilism !