fallen into sunlight

from the before times

in my head there's
still the version of
me where i'm laughing,
the head tipped
up to the sky
kind of laughter.
vivacious, sprouting like
flowers from deep within my chest kind of laughter.
this person exists only in
my head.
fragments of memories,
lacking time and place,
only a feeling and a thought.
a snapshot back in time,
an archive of the person i was
before.

before everything shattered.