Anidita: Mending the relationship

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Anirudh's POV:-

She was right there. Under the bed. Laughing and giggling for the first time after the whole 'Marrying Manorama phase'. A small smile played on my lips on seeing her happy, but it vanished in an instant as I remembered what I wanted to do. What I should do.

Even though I felt too bad for breaking her heart once again, but this is the only way in which I can bring her on the right path. I started playing with Manorama to hurt her and make her believe that she's nothing for me now. I can see her laughter turning into tears and my heart clenched. No Anirudh! You can't be weak.

"Ahhhhh" She shouted and I rushed to her but stopped. No, I can't. I won't. Otherwise she'll again misinterpret my actions.She was trying to crawl out of the little space and seeing how she was keeping her palm on her forehead, I can make out that she had bumped in the bed. She must be in pain, as there were tears in her eyes, but little did I know that they weren't only due to the injury. I took a step forward out of instincts to check her head, but stopped dead in my tracks.

Anirudh, don't!

"Tum yaha kya kar rahi ho Bondita" I said to her faking anger and irritation on seeing her. "Hame pareshan karne aayi ho tum? Arey kuchh samay ke liye mera peechha nahi chhod sakti ho? Kuchh samay ke liye akela nahi rehne de sakti tum mujhe? Jab dekho tab shararat karti ho. Sharart bhi ek had tak achhi lagti hai, lekin jab vo hadd paar ho jaaye tab chidh (चिढ़) hone lagti hai. Apni harkaton ki tarah tum bhi Ek pareshaani ban gayi ho mere liye. "

I immediately regretted my last line. I shouldn't have said that. How did it even come on my tongue? Were these my actual feelings? No that can't be, right? Her eyes started to well up, but she didn't even allowed a single tear to escape.

"Agar pareshaani main badati hu toh sabki pareshaani suljhayungi bhi main" She turned towards Manorama. "Aap ko khaarish in safed phoolon ki vajah se ho rahi thi. Ye phool yaha se hata dijiye toh khaarish nahi hogi aapko"

She started going out of the room but stopped at the gate. With her back facing towards me, she said"Aapki pareshaani bhi jald hi durr kar dungi main Barrister babu" My heart ached when she called me Barrister babu insted of birristra babu. She ran out of the room and I banged my fist on the table in frustration. Manorama consoled me and we both went to sleep; she slept on the bed, while I took the couch. I can remember lying there wide awake, worrying about what lay ahead and whether I made the right choice or not.

My sleep broke at the crack of dawn and I checked the time; it was 4:00 in the morning. It took me a little time to process as to why I was sleeping on the couch and then all the memories of previous night hit me. I got up and saw Manorama sleeping peacefully on the bed. She looked as though nothing has been changed and she wasn't just casually sleeping on someone else's bed. I mentally sighed and tried to sleep again as it was too early, but my thoughts didn't let my brain to rest. After half an hour, I was convinced that it was futile to sleep now, so I decided to take a bath and get ready.

When I went in the hall, the sun was shining brightly outside, and kaka was shouting.

"Bihariiii!!"

Bihari, our house servant, came running "Ji Bade Malik! "

"Kisne banayi hai ye chai? Itni bekar chai" Kaka kept, or rather threw, the tea cup on the table.

"Bade malik aaj chai chhoti malkin ne nahi banayi hai. Vo subah se apne kamre se bahar hi nahi aayi hai"

Kaka's eyes suddenly softened and sighing, he made his way to the idol of goddess Durga. I and Bihari followed him, while everyone else also came downstairs, listening to the commotion.